๐ฆ๐ฑ๐ช๐ฝ ๐๐ท ๐ค๐ท๐ฑ๐ธ๐ต๐ ๐๐ช๐ท...
๐ฃ๐ป๐ฒ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ป ๐ฆ๐ช๐ป๐ท๐ฒ๐ท๐ฐ: ๐ก๐ฎ๐ต๐ฒ๐ฐ๐ธ๐พ๐ผ ๐๐ท๐ณ๐พ๐ผ๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ผ & ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ท๐ผ๐ฎ ๐๐ถ๐ถ๐ธ๐ป๐ช๐ต๐ฒ๐ฝ๐ (๐๐ฎ๐ญ๐ธ๐น๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ต๐ฒ๐ช/๐๐ฎ๐ท๐ธ๐ฌ๐ฒ๐ญ๐ฎ) & ๐ข๐พ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ผ๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฎ ๐๐ช๐ฝ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฒ๐ช๐ต
The manโs shaky breath could be heard behind the ancient cedar that was strained with age and the past confessions.. Hate, crime, sin.. All of which ached at my ears and tightened at my throat. The smell of coffee on the nervous, blubbery man could not escape the cage like box that had become my second home.
โF-Father I have sinned greatly-โ
โAs many others have, speak unto me and wish for God's forgiveness.โ, I merely recited from a fragment of mind before the rosy cheeked teacher mumbled away about โseducingโ a student of his. Disgust filled my head and hoped that god didnโt shed a light on the manโs action unless it were to shame; I had to rid myself quickly of such a vile feeling before continuing.
โDo you understand that by giving your body, not only to a child, but committing adultery is a serious sinโฆ Not only that but a crime.โ
โYes sir. But all I ask is forgiveness.โ, the manโs sweat could be seen glaring off the hint of light peeking through the confession door. A sigh filtered past my lips and my eyes shut wishing it would not be so easy to send him off with a โgod forgives you of your sinsโ. This wasnโt the worst thing he had heard through that barterโฆ A far older man had once waltzed into my church after hours to beg for forgiveness; although it was not begging, far from it.. It was more of a demand than anything else. I could still recall that day vividly. To rush the pig-like man out of my church to ponder over the sickening memory I bowed my head after ushering a prayer to the heavens to forgive me from being so impatient.
โGod forgives you for your sin but I want to warn you carefully and strongly advise you to bear honesty upon your shoulders and receive your consequences bravely. You mustn't fear such consequences because you are due them, if you do not appeal to receive them then God will be sure to give them unto you unwillingly.โ
โY-Yes sir.โ
โYou may leave. Allow the next person to step forth, thank you.โ, I mumbled again as my heart felt lightened after such a warning. Of course, God may have been looking down upon me in my ill heart for such a warning but I felt as if I should have done what was morally right. I was left in silence for a moment as the thickly built man squeezed out of my stands to fetch yet another.
โI killed them all.. A smile was on my face and I do believe they deserved it. Killing a Jew should be right butโฆ Jesus Christ has shown his side to me. I need forgiveness before I leave the face of this Earth and transcend in a different form.โ
โGod would be hesitant to let you in-โ
โHe will let me in. I am asking for forgiveness arenโt I?โ
โGod does not give forgiveness so willingly. You have taken souls from this Earth too quickly and for unjust-โ
โYou will give me forgiveness or so help me god-โ
I snapped back into reality to hear the beacon speak so shallowly of himself and his needs. My eyes peeked through the partition in which oftentimes I did not allow my eyes to seek through. Curiosity is what took away human immortality.. Took for our sins. That is what my father advised me not to doโฆ Curiosity will allow Lucifer to clutch onto you like prey and pull you down to the depths with him. Now, my father is probably in a boiling bath with satan now due to how he ran the church into the ground. Ill words still shared from past members of my name which quickly coaxed me to take a trip down to the courts to file a legal name change.. I took up my gentle and kind hearted motherโs name instead. My brown eyes met dazzling green eyes and a pairing body. A hard swallow and I leaned back.
โPlease. Tell me why you are here..โ
โMy thoughts run wild Father-โ
โAh, ah.. Introduce yourself. Father, for I have sinned.. Then state your sin. You are seeking forgiveness are you?โ I spoke carefully before the man took a deep breath.
โFather, for I have sinnedโฆโ, the man hesitated before I moved back into view, catching those eyes meeting mine.
โYou can go ahead. There is no one else out there now, correct?โ I spoke in a soothing tone before the reddened face nodded.
โYes father. Can I be honest with you?โ, the man spoke with hesitance in his voice.
โOf course.. Go ahead. Honesty is far more important than to lie and be aided in forgiveness by false words.โ
โWell, like I said before.. My thoughts travel. I thought it was a phase but they just donโt go away and havenโt gone anyway since I was in college. They were the worst in college and they quickly led me to act upon them-โ
โI apologize to interrupt and assume but have you come here to plead forgiveness for giving into homosexuality?โ, I spoke so formally yet I myself knew the same. My father grew me on a tight leash and once he had passed onโฆ I went on a frenzy. Something I wished to keep godโs eyes from seeing but as many believed, homosexuality wasnโt necessarily a sin just like sex wasnโt. As long as it was within good faith and not for advantage."
Silence quickly befell my confessing green eyed-youth. I redirected my eyes and spoke confidently, โWithin this church, MY church.. You have not to worry over such a nonsensical rule or sin.. God forgives you but would you like to add anything else?โ, I looked back over after leaning back but the strangerโs fingers slipped through the wall that divided us.
โThenโฆ You have something to say father.โ, the man spoke before chuckling and my heart drummed.
โIโm flattered but- Iโm sorry. Excuse me-โ, I almost pleaded myself before those green eyes peeked over.
โMy thoughts are of you. But Iโve come to take something that belongs to meโ, the man spoke and I felt my spirit leap from my chest into my loins.
โA-Again, excuse me.โ, I spoke almost as quickly as a free weight hit the ground. Letting myself out to the empty stage of my church. My face reddened from both the heat of the booth and embarrassment that I gave into curiosity so quickly. Soon enough I felt a hand spin me around or at least what I thought was a hand had turned into a claw. It dug into my wrist and spilt red across the glorious carpets of my castle, of my beliefs and thereโฆ Those green eyes befell on me yet again. A toothy smile and I knew I had fallen for the unspeakable.
โL-Lucifer..โ, a whisper passed my lips before my words were taken from me.
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