I lost someone close to me when I was very small. It was sad. My parent at that time told me that the person has gone to a far away place. It was sad to me. My parent was sad too. Because of that incident, we had uprooted our whole lives by moving to a different country for a change of environment. Had that incident not happen, I believe we wouldn't have moved.
I often wish that person is still here, but she is not. She has left us alone. Our lives have changed a lot since then, not for the better for me. My parent has switched job from one country to another, so I had to follow him and studied in different schools and countries. All the changes have affected my growth, especially my emotional growth to the point that I was very emotionally needy and immatured when I finished high school. I didn't have a steady foot when I entered college like some others who already knew what they wanted out of college. I just thought of college like a school that I needed to attend, so I didn't do well in it, as I wasn't even sure what I wanted to major in. Initially, I majored in Biology, but I couldn't cope with the upper level courses, so I decided to switch to a different major in the Social Sciences and I was able to do well in it.
Anyways... After graduation, I worked for a law office there on and off for a few years and when the opportunity came for me to move to the continental USA, I took it. So, 14 years ago, I started living and working in one state in the continental USA. Initially, I had no idea what the state was like because I had never been there before. I took a leap of faith and decided to just move there without even having any idea of what the place was like. Since then, I've come to know about the state and quite familiar with it already to the point that I felt like I am such a stranger when I'm in a different state.
I've also encountered a big setback in my life about 10 years ago, which got me into really bad depression till now. It was a bad experience and a black mark in my life. Noone has really taught me about self-love. I still remember what someone said to me when I was in college dealing with an unhappy incident. He said, "Do you know what can help you now? Self esteem." He was the uncle of the person I was having an issue with. My college counselor would have all the notes on my struggles. I wrote some nice poems too at that time which really described how I felt... They are pretty cool. I would like to have my poetry published in a book one day so that they are never lost.
I don't write poetry anymore because I don't have that much sadness to write about I guess.
I also had a thing with Scientology too and didn't know that it was a cult until I was told about it.
Anyways.. the incident that I had 10 years ago was rather bad to me. I am lucky that I was able to get out of it with no big negative impact on me. But I still got the depression with me, which I still have to try to overcome.
Anyways, I just thought of the person that I have lost when I was small, and just wish that the person is still here today. Once a person is gone, they are gone forever and will never come back. That's what it's like for all those who have lost a loved one. In this pandemic, the least that one can do is to wear a mask when out or stay home to help stop the spread and prevent further lives from being lost. America has voted for Joe Biden. America can also help stop the spread of coronavirus.
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