Who is this ?

#getting to know me challenge!

Hi I first found this quite daunting as I’m feeling drained; let down; and extremely anxious about growing my book.

1 I live in Manchester England and I’m a retired medium and healer. To just finding out I have the quality of a witch, a spell caster! Well this just drove me into a small hole of doubt!

How can this be ! I’m a devout Christian/Catholic, keep to my commandments, but have veered off the path, so to speak.

Hence I developed, a little strategy that if I say these words morning and night; the energy should return and the haunting of “Job” should disappear.

I wrote a poem about Self awareness. It wrote out across the page in urgency and an ex into a little bit of the realm, it guides me, provides and protects me, hope this poem gives a little understanding of me!

Only in my pain did I find my own will, in the depths of sorrow's shadowed veil,where anguish weaves its melancholy tale, amidst the tears that fell like autumn rain, I discovered my strength, my own Will's domain.

Within the heartache's bitter, searing flame, a seed of resilience began to claim, its roots entwined with scars of countless hours.

As pain unveiled my dormant inner powers,through shattered dreams and broken shards of fate, I navigated darkness, embraced its weight,for in the crucible of suffering's art, I forged a spirit resilient and unswerving heart.

Each tear that stained my cheeks with sorrow's stain, became a testament, a testament of gain, for deep within the caverns of despair, I found my voice, my purpose, and my share.

No longer bound by chains of doubt and fear, my pain became the catalyst, ever clear, to rise above the ashes, strong and brave, to conquer trials, the strength within engrave.

For only in my pain, a crucible of fire, did I uncover the depths of my desire, too strive, to dream, to soar against the wind, and through the darkest nights, my will rescind.

So as the echoes of my anguish fade, I'll wear my scars with pride, and unafraid, for in their midst, my spirit stood, unshaken, and in my pain, my true self was awakened.

In my own chaos did I learn to be still In the midst of chaos, wild and uncontrolled, where turmoil reigned and uncertainty took hold, amidst the swirling storms that threatened to consume, I discovered the power of stillness in my own room.

when life's tempests raged, relentless and loud, chaos reigned, a dissonant shroud, sought solace within, a tranquil retreat,where silence whispered secrets, gentle and sweet.

In the whirlwind of thoughts that tangled my mind, I found refuge in the quiet, a haven to unwind, for in the stillness, a sanctuary did reside, place where clarity bloomed, undisturbed by the tide.

While chaos danced its frenzied ballet, I learned to be still, to quiet the fray, to listen to the whispers of my inner core, embrace the serenity it held in store.

Through the cacophony and clamor's embrace, I discovered the calm that exists in each space, for chaos, it taught me the value of peace, to find the stillness within, where worries cease.

In the eye of the hurricane, a tranquil reprieve, a moment of clarity, where chaos cannot deceive, or in my own chaos, I learned to be still,find serenity amidst life's tumultuous thrill.

So now, as chaos continues its relentless dance, I'll seek the stillness, the quiet expanse, for within the turmoil, I hold the key, to embrace the calm, and find the peace that sets me free.

Only in my fear did I learn how to fight, In the depths of fear, where shadows loomed,uncertainty cast its veil, consumed, I discovered a fire that burned within, fierce determination, a will to win.

Amidst the tremors that shook my soul, I found the strength to rise and take control, for fear, it taught me to face the unknown,

To stand tall and fight, no longer alone. In the face of darkness, I found my light, a spark of courage, burning ever bright, for fear became the fuel that fed my might,

Igniting a warrior's spirit, ready to fight. Through trembling limbs and a pounding heart, I embraced the fear, refusing to fall apart, for in its grip, I unearthed hidden might; reservoir of bravery, shining in the night.

Each trembling step, a battle cry anew, as fear transformed into strength, it grew, with every challenge faced, I learned to rise, to conquer the obstacles before my eyes.

No longer bound by fear's imprisoning wall, embraced the fight, standing tall, for in my fear's embrace, I found my might, warrior's spirit, fierce and alight.

So as fear lingers, a companion by my side, I'll harness its energy, let it be my guide, for in my fear's embrace, I've learned to fight,to overcome the shadows and claim my light.

Only in my own darkness did I learn to find light, In the depths of darkness, where shadows dwell.

Where despair's whispers echo and sadness swells, discovered a glimmer, a flicker of light, beacon of hope, piercing through the night. Amidst the abyss that consumed my soul, I found resilience, a strength to make me whole,

For in my own darkness, I unearthed a spark ; resilience that shone through the enveloping dark. Through the trials that tested my spirit's might, I embraced the shadows, held them tight, for within their depths, I discovered my worth, resilience that emerged from the depths of my dearth.

In the void of despair, I found solace within; sanctuary where growth and healing begin,

For darkness taught me to appreciate the light, to cherish every glimmer, every ray burning bright.

Through tears and struggles, I learned to endure, find strength within, to rise and to secure, in my own darkness, I found the power, face the world bravely, hour after hour.

No longer defined by the shadows I've known, I've embraced my darkness, made it my own, for within its embrace, I found the strength to grow, to navigate life's challenges, to let my spirit show. So as darkness lingers, a companion by my side,

I'll carry its lessons, let them be my guide, for in my own darkness, I've found the light,

A resilience that shines, burning fierce and bright I know this transformation can be transient, fleeting moment, like a passing scent.

life is filled with cycles that ebb and flow, where transformation's beauty comes and goes.

The journey of change is not a static state, but a dance of shifts, both subtle and great, what once was certain may become uncertain, and what was transformed may revert, as certain.

Yet within these transient waves of time, lies the essence of growth, a rhythm sublime ; transformation is not a fixed destination, but a continuous process of self-revelation. Each transformation, though it may not endure, leaves an imprint, lessons to cherish and ensure , even if the changes fade away, they shape our being in a profound way.

So embrace the transient nature of transformation, For it teaches us to embrace life's oscillation, to find beauty in the fleeting, the impermanent, savour each moment, be it grand or momentary; for in this transient dance, we find our grace, adapting, evolving, at our own unique pace, as we navigate life's ever-changing tide, discover that transformation is our faithful guide.

Why do not be afraid as you are just simply falling into something beautiful, like when a moth turns into a beautiful butterfly, flying over the horizon in your heart it carries a beat. In this cascade of words, I'll embrace the fall, into a new way of beautiful, answering the call, as I dive into uncharted realms of art,

I'll paint a tapestry of beauty, from the depths of my heart. Like a leaf descending in a gentle breeze.

I'll let go of limitations, embrace the unknown with ease, for in the realm of newness, lies endless possibility, where the boundaries of beauty dissolve with fragility.

I'll explore uncharted landscapes, untraveled trails, where creativity thrives and imagination prevails, with each step.

I'll discover hues unseen, crafting a symphony of words, a vision serene.

In this journey of expression, I'll shed my old skin, embrace the evolution, let the transformation begin,

For beauty lies not in stagnancy, but in constant flow, where each moment unfolds, like a blossoming glow, seek inspiration in the simplest of things,

In whispers of nature, in the songs that spring brings,

And as I plunge into this new way of beautiful, I'll unravel the depths of creativity, bountiful.

So let the old paradigms crumble and fade, as I dance with the muse, unafraid, for in this falling, I'll discover a newfound grace,

A beauty that transcends time and space. and as the words take flight, like birds in the sky,

I'll embrace the new way of beautiful, with wings that defy, for in this journey of expression, I'll find my true voice, and in each verse, a reflection of my soul's rejoice.