Love is a Many Splendored Thing
You have quality ears And a high-end nose. Grade A meat on your bones. I once worshipped whoever I was with. The writing above is an entry in one of my journals about the primary in my first polyamorous relationship. The anesthetizing effect of love on my bipolar brain is well-documented in my writing and therapist’s notes. Monogamous or polyamorous didn’t matter to me at first. What mattered was that I had someone to call my own. I wanted to have a person like a possession. I wanted an object to admire, to use when convenient, and to ignore when it suited me. Of course, I never would have articulated my desires in this way. It sounded more like “soul-mates” or “they’re my everything.” It was romantic hyperbole. Love-bombing from a disordered brain. I would knock you off that pedestal as quickly as I built it for you. I wasn’t properly medicated for my bipolar disorder until I was twenty-seven, so every relationship before that was marred by the whims of my dysfunctional mind.
Be my Valentine
In the celestial realm, where stars twinkled like diamonds in the vast expanse of the night sky, there existed two beings of immense power and beauty - an angel named Seraphina and a demon named Azazel. Seraphina, with her radiant wings of gold and eyes as blue as the clearest ocean, was the embodiment of purity and grace. Azazel, with his dark wings and piercing red eyes, possessed a seductive allure that captivated all who beheld him. Despite their inherent differences, they found themselves drawn to each other, their hearts entwined in a forbidden love.
The heartbreak that started it all
Recently I spoke with an ex-girlfriend who asked me why I had treated her the way I did when we were dating. I should clarify I never beat her, or gaslit her, I just wasn’t as present as I should have been, and I was probably way more casual about our relationship than she deserved. I admitted that a big part of that was my insecurities around my fear that at some point she’d figure she wanted someone more attractive than me, or richer than me, or just someone better than me in some regard.
People Who Don’t Care About You, Stop Wasting Your Time On Them
In our journey of life, we often come across people who do not value our time, effort, and emotions, It can be a frustrating experience to invest our energy and resources into relationship with individuals who do not reciprocate our feelings.
LOVE SATURATION Jack of Vibes Studio! The Hero of the Day!! Before Jack’s career He relocated to the Modern day Lagos city of Nigeria in the early twenties to seek a brighter fortune.
I Am A Problem
Introduction I know I am a problem for most people. I see it every day on Vocal and Facebook, or I think I do. Since before Christmas, it has been made clear that my work is not good enough and there is nothing I can do to rectify that.
I think dating in general has always been difficult for some, even before the rise of dating apps. But I do feel the introduction of them on top of social media has made it far worse. I haven't had the best luck in love, so needless to say when I do finally find someone it sends my anxious attachment into overdrive. I am so scared of being abandoned that the slightest change in someone's attitude will send me into the worst case scenario. Don't even get my started on texting, at this point I almost wish it didn't exist! It's my goal to begin working on this part of myself, so I can be better for myself and my relationships.
The History of Valentine's Day.
Valentine's Day, a day dedicated to expressing love and affection, has a long and diverse history that spans centuries and has been shaped by various cultural and historical influences. Although the modern celebration is associated with the exchange of cards, flowers, and romantic gestures, the origins of Valentine's Day can be traced back to ancient traditions and Christian history.
A Trip Through Self-Humiliation: The Mirror's Reflection
I sat by myself in the poorly lighted room, bearing the consequences of my actions heavily on my mind. The sound of my own labored breathing is the only sound breaking the silence. I've wrestled with my old demons many nights, haunted by regretful and ashamed recollections. But I feel like I have to face them head-on tonight and admit the truth about how humble I really am.
One Week No Alcohol!
Well I did it! I made it 7 whole days and not one drink of alcohol, even with temptation in the house. I am very proud of myself, as a lot of times when other people drink I tend to as well. I tend to have a fear of missing out when it comes to things like that. I just wanted to let you know if you're on this journey no matter where you are, thinking about starting, I am here for you and I support you. We got this, and sometimes we have to take it one minute at a time when things feel too overwhelming.
Exploring the Unseen Forces
"Do you want to see the most illegal thing I own? It's a penny from 2027. That's right, a piece of counterfeit US currency. Or is it? There are no 2027 pennies today, which means this is a counterfeit of an original that doesn't exist yet. I mean, sure, if you didn't look at the date, this could pass as real. But will it not truly be counterfeit until 2027? Well, what we do know is that it's a novelty item with a lifespan. It's really cool to show people today – a penny from the future. But in 2027, it will become indistinguishable from a common penny and cease to be as interesting.
Lie To Me. Issue #2 As It Was
Ok. I have only ever recounted this story one other time. Whenever asked about this Era of my life from my family and my friends I always keep the details to myself and just stick to the Who/What/When/Why & Where. With this in mind please understand that I will be changing names, dates, and for the sake of keeping this story to a readable length certain event(s) will be shortened or bulleted. I will do my best to answer any questions that may arise. Thank you for reading about the worst experience of my life.