Sitting In My Chair Upside Down
By Ryan Wilkins
My friend of countless years,
Did sit across amongst our peers,
I pondered why I felt dismay,
A seat apart, afar and away,
This cursed state, I sat and stared,
How no look was found, nor shared,
knew naught why and was unaware,
The vex I felt, caught and ensnared,
The truth behold, untrue and unfair,
I look to you, who has been true,
Light does shine, sparkle and hue,
So fair a face I glanced to see,
A chance, an expression, a mirror to me,
A fate untold my friend of many years of late,
What was a whimper then spoke, now debate,
I wanted you to spy me too,
See what was, what could, what can I do,
The need did grow to bear a truth,
Which crept upon me as moss to the tree,
To look from on high, stoic and see,
What bliss could be. Anon, never and No,
I will not risk, not shine, not let grow,
Not sow, not joy, not toy,
And what could I even speak,
A prospect cold and dark and bleak,
Diminish now a friend and king,
To leave alone, a gutter to swing,
A ship to shore and saddle to steed,
A cloud to the heavens and knight to his creed,
I need not your love, I live untethered and freed,
No longer will I stare, what I hope can never be seen,
Not show, never grow, nor fruit, no been,
I leave this childish daydream, a living nightmare,
Caught in hopes to fall too far, in one stare,
No farther will I ride this hope, answer no siren’s call,
The task too tall, too perilous a fall,
Let me rest, gather my head and my heels,
Let her not see a heart that reels,
Frozen and dead, it beats no more,
I bury my hurt, lost love, undone,
Throw off my clasps attached to no one,
Only a monster, it screams and it growls,
Claws and teeth, up late it now howls,
I will calm this beast, soothe to sleep,
Unprepared It walks on hands and feet,
A newborn, swaddled, unready, unsteady
Tender, young, unworldly, it becomes a kitten,
I meet her gaze, she smiles, unstaged and unwritten
Our eyes lock, time stops, and now I am smitten.
About the Creator
Ryan Wilkins
Don’t Panic…
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