poems to my soul ...

August

Not where I want to be but safe where I am

Not where I expected but look how far I have come

Not what I expected but surprised how things worked out

Not what I expected but thank God for my family

Birthdays

What do they mean?

One year around the sun

One full year of being your age

What do they mean?

One full year of change

One full year of growth

What do they mean?

365 of smiling and happiness

365 of tears and fears

what does it mean?

A full year of age

childhood slowly drifting away

Adulthood creeping in more and more

Do birthdays mean anything?

October

New opportunities

New choices

New friends

New places

New Clothes

New dogs

New dates

New people

New love

New love

"There were two"

You wait for me, I wait for you

It's almost two and I dont see you

Is it me or is it you

They'll never know unless there's two

...

"Because I love, love"

Easy, longing

Butterflies in my tummy

Trouble no more

I wish you'd come before

Melt like butter

My heart flutters

For you I can

Therefore I can

...

"Modern day love"

like, dislike

facetime, call me

distant, for two

talk, no more

begin again, the third time

it's different, I swear

less time with friends, more time with him

who am I now, the boy he's been

...

"Distant Friends"

Inseparable, always together

Sleepovers, runs home

1 leaves, there used to be 3

2 stay, 730 days

slowly distant, why me?

I dont know, what went wrong

Seperate dinners, no more play

Where'd you go?

I miss you...

"Toxic beings"

Slow charming

fake smile

no timing

1 sided

slowly distant

isolation

of a friend

not right

nothing to do

how do I help

what do we do

"Scars on my Heart"

you hurt me more than you'll ever know

I sit and wonder what I did wrong, while you move forward with your life

maybe that's what makes me unique

I think and think, while others move on

I can't help but hope you're okay

and I hope one day things get better for you

but while I heal and start to feel out of place

I still wonder, are you okay?

"Recognizing"

You deserve so much more. I hope you find what you are looking for.

In a sea of people, you found eachother to learn and grow but not to stay long.

We meet people to learn and sometimes it doesn't last long.

There should be deal breakers. Key points that you can't stay over.

These are things that make us, us. And help us not lose ourselves over.

We cannot keep people in our lives because we feel bad or because we are scared of what could happen.

If we don't look out for ourselves? Who will?

Fall

Chilly air

leaves on the ground

crisp apples

windy nights

bonfires

cider beers

family parties

car rides

more layers

"Me"

I tend to value my self worth based on others opinions

I don't find myself pretty unless others do

I don't know where I lost myself

I was so sure of myself at a young age

Always knowing what I want but sometimes knowing what others "want"

I find myself checking with others before I check with myself

When did I stop worrying about myself and only worry about others

This is something I've been working on and I hope to get better at

Slowly but surely we will make way

"Cheers to you, cheers to me, and cheers to everything we'll ever be."

-me

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