To the Love of my Life,
I don't even know where to begin this letter to you, or even if you will ever see this. I hope you do. I hope that this finds its way to you somehow because I need you to know that none of this was a game. That none of this was a lie or even a joke. I need you to know that the love I had and still have for you was and is 100% real it. That despite all the demons inside your head telling you that it wasn't real, it was. I know you had to block me from your life because it was tearing you apart physically and mentally. I know you had to do what was best for you. But I wish things could have been different. I wish we could have pushed that restart button together and not separate.
I know what we had was special, I know it was something out of this world. It was something precious that I will cherish for the rest of my life because I know deep down you were truly my soulmate. That connection was so power that why would anyone ever want to lose that, but I guess I ended up losing it. I know I've written my fair share of "letters" to you over the past 2 and a half weeks that basically poured my heart out, but this one is different. I'm not writing this to you to cause you any more pain, I am writing this so that you have a sense of peace and know that what we had was 1 in a million. You know that saying where it goes, "you always realize what you had the moment its gone" I've always known what I had even before it was gone.
I know that there was a lot of things going on in your life that was hard for you to cope with or even manage alone. I know that you are struggling with an illness I can't seem to help with being so far away. I hope that in the meantime you are taking care of yourself and getting the help you need to get yourself back on track. I'm sorry for the countless arguments we had during your episodes because I know that added more stress on you. And I shouldn't have done that to you. For I am truly sorry. I wish I could have said and done things differently, but I can't change the past. I just hope that one day you will see that I tried and will continue to try to better myself and get more educated on the things going on in your life. I hope that one day I'll be able to talk to you again and see how you're doing only if it's for a few mins.
I forgive you for all that has happened and that was said, I hope that you can someday forgive me as well. No matter what happens in your life or mine. I will always care for you no matter what, I will always worry about you and hoping you're taking care of yourself, I will always cherish the good memories we did create in a short period of time, but most of all I will continue to always love you, always no matter what. The feelings I had for you; I promise will never go away. You will always have a place in my heart. The key is always yours. I wish you the best of luck in your life and I hope for the best. I hope that someday we can make our way back to each other regardless of it being together or just to be friends or even like I said to check in and make sure we're both doing okay.
My love and feelings for you were always real, I wasn't sent on earth to hurt you in any way, shape or form I hope one day you will see that.
I love you, always and forever. Please take care