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Love Letter to Myself <3

Sofii’s Heartbreak Diary

By Carla SofiiLove Garcia Published 2 years ago Updated 2 years ago 3 min read
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Love Letter to Myself <3
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There was a time when you were my world, everything I knew to love, but in a blink of an eye you walked away and that was the end of time. I didn’t know one person had the ability of causing such pain, being able to walk away like I never existed. Much to my surprise, I don’t miss you as much as I thought I would, my heart has healed a million times over… if you can get over me right away, so can my heart and soul. I used to feel sad at the thought of being without you, never thought I could love again, until he came along and showed me a world I couldn’t even imagine.

Being tethered to one person is exhausting, wondering why this person doesn’t love me anymore is torture, but having the strength and ability to move on is freeing… I’m happy to no longer be a prisoner of your emotional cage. Thank you for being there when I needed you, for making me happy during the time we were together, but I can confidently say I am over you, we can both be at peace. You showed me a side of me that I had forgotten about, that side is called Independence. I forgot who I was without you, I lost myself in our joint entity, but now I’m back to being me and that’s all I’ve ever needed.

Consumed by passion for the one person I fell head over heels for, losing sight of every part of my being was probably one of the worst decisions I ever made. But the fire that this new man has sparked beneath me has revived me in ways I didn't think were possible. I used to think that monogamy was the only way, my moral compass always led me back to you, but as soon as the chains that were holding me down were broken, I was liberated and never took another look back. It feels good to be my own person again, not worried about my sinful thoughts stealing the glances I would give you, forgetting who we were because I was too busy being lost in my thoughts of his arms around my waist and his lips touching mine. You and I had passion that drove us to wild nights and intimate mornings, but the days I have with him are of a different feeling, maybe because my feelings are not involved, I am not tied to this man, we are two people who are looking for lustful depths deeper than the ocean floor. He knows how to drive me to places that were unexplored.

It was helpful to have gone through this experience with you, learning more about my identity, recognizing what I truly needed to be content, and being ok with being alone. I thank you for pushing me to be stronger and to learn what I deserve from a partner… without your antics, I would’ve been blinded by the love I had towards you. I have to thank you for being selfish, detached, and unwilling to give me what I was looking for; this fueled my need to become courageous and figure out that the need of a partner was not as important as the want for bigger, better things was, but I don't have to explain this to you or anyone anymore. I know my worth and I know what I deserve, until that day comes, I will continue to focus on me.

I love you, the lady that drives my soul, the one who motivates me every day to be the best I can be, the one to always remind me that I am more than what I am perceived to be and more than I see myself to be. Thank you beautiful lady for always being there for me, for standing strong when I was weak, for making sure that I can see what I was usually blinded to, and for holding me up when I couldn't stand on my own; Carla Sofia, you truly have grown into a wonderful human being, no man will ever appreciate you as much as you appreciate yourself.

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About the Creator

Carla SofiiLove Garcia

Writing is my passion... find me on Twitter @goddesswriter90.

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