Life before a Narcissist
Life before Evil by Mariann Carroll
My mom used to sing a song call “Let the Sunshine in” .
I never thought there are evil people in the world
Or they could succeed in the manipulation (evil scheme).
My life without narcissist is like days full of rainbows.
Everything in life just flows in the right directions.
My health was great. I can eat and do anything I want,
Like being in the garden of EDEN.
Life in a Bubble , nutshell.
Evil is surrounded the bubble until , I let the wolf in. Then the Bubble
Started to Pop and darkness sets in.
No more Freedom
No more liberations
No more Sunshine 🌞
Just isolation from trying to reach my dream.
I started to live in fear and worry , like never before.
I was in a bubble of 😰 fear . I started to learn to live, like a monster.
A terrified dog, if I let anyone close,
they will hurt me like the narcissist did.
I learned to bark like vicious dog , cause
I truly scared to bite and hurt anyone.
The Narcissist don’t work alone,
It pulls others into its agenda,
A popular kid in school used its influence
Power, to control the less popular kids .
A narcissist, think it’s agenda is good ,
Cause they believe “ the end justify the means”
by Niccolo Machiavelli.
Narcissist don’t care who they hurt, until they
get what they want, Power over another.
They are Prince Charming but without true honest love.
Their gifts are like an beautiful apple but the apple 🍎 is poison
And sour . Once you bite into it , your life spiral into darkness.
There is no help insight, cause everyone think you should be strong and
smart enough to withstand such false charm.
Run you try, but you are like a mouse trap in the corner,
If only you can run like Speedy Gonzales.
Will Danner on YouTube
Why is it hard for people to share and be kind to one another, cause people thirst for power and control.
This is a sad cycle of life. Narcissist, keep the evil cycle going.
How do you let the Sunshine in ? Doctors just want to give everyone a Chill Pill, which cause more problems . The side affect of the Chill Pill is not worth the physical heart pain . The court is happy if you just take the chill pill . The problem is still there unresolved.
You just a zombie, letting the narcissist do as it pleases.
Is there a way to win a narcissist? Everyone losses , I am sorry to say.
Unless you have faith as big as a muster seed. This has always been a mystery, a riddle to me.
If you keep on going and think of you freedom goal, you get there, that’s faith to me.
Protect you peace by being careful on who you let in . Never be so desperate
In your thinking someone is responsible for your own happiness.
Our Creator made you enough. If you can stay good in life adversities, that makes you a strong person. Thanks for reading my rambling story .
Volunteer work will bring Sunshine in your life and it block out the darkness a narcissist try to charm into your life. Here is a song, I hope inspires you.
( I found this YouTube video , if you cannot fallow asleep, try to wake up knowing you are enough, here a go rambling on )
KHB
I hope this story helped you fall asleep if nothing else . Goodnight , 😴.
About the Creator
Mariann Carroll
Proactive for positive change.Born in the City of Chicago ,Illinois.
Multi race .Studied in a foreign country .Fluent in several languages .
fascinated by diversity.A Romantic and a dreamer.Interest in healthy living
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Comments (7)
well written!
Honesty, pain, and beauty. Well done.
Really raw and honest writing. Thank you for sharing something so personal and in the end, uplifting. The song was just perfect :)
Thanks for sharing 🥲🫶🏾🙏❤️❤️
Excellent confession story!!! Sending hugs!!!
Very interesting read. You packed a lot of interesting and useful insights into this. Thank you Marian.
Whoaaaaa! This was just so brilliant! I loved these lines: They are Prince Charming but without true honest love. Their gifts are like an beautiful apple but the apple 🍎 is poison As a victim of being with a narcissist, this poem resonated with me. I loved it!