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"I wrote a letter to myself..."

"And it was full of Promises"

By Nefarious DarriusPublished 2 years ago Updated 2 years ago 4 min read
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Pic taken by me, on my phone 16JUL2022; 2020, SAT.

3AUG2022; 1649, WED- Maryland, USA

Peaceful Tidings and woe to the Bidens; haha. Came up with that just now; on the spot; and off the top.

Mediocre poetry notwithstanding: Welcome to my "Don't take synthetic drugs without a Rx and/or improperly" talk. I'm elated that you could make it.

Heads-up: There's "just a smidge" of religious references; considering theology's heavy influence throughout my life. Here's to hoping that the mods can look past that well enough to ensure this piece sees the light of day.

Also, it was originally a homework assignment from therapy; full disclosure. Just to emphasize the extreme extent: I may or may not have earned my way back into a U.S. Army sniper section were it not for tomfoolery such as "illicit extracurricular activities".

It's nearly maddening to try and comprehend. The potential successes; attempted succession; and the successive, severe losses since back when.

Sinatra said it best with his tune about recovering by June. That being despite those who "get their kicks stomping on a dream".

Anywhos, my friends and Fam often trope when we foul up, "Don't be like me!" And now for the meat, potatoes, as well as non-alcoholic brewskis:

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10JUN2022; 1559, FRI- Morriston, Florida, USA (6/10/2022 A.D.)

Dear Self,

Peace, blessings, and Love. All praise due to Him that we're at least living on a prayer.

Our prayers do not seem to always to always reach Heaven these days tho. That might feasibly have some correlation to a lack of forgiveness.

Not from The Father, obviously. Not even from the other fallibles; many of whom we've treated completely and utterly odiously.

"Periodt." As a therapy sesh the other day revealed: Unity has yet to forgive Darrius for firing up that damned Spice.

One thing for sure, two things for certain: We need to pretend like we've seen "Frozen" only 42 times; then Elsa that shit. Feels like a Fall from Grace; sure.

Conversely, your Precious Princess named Grace; nor her big Sis can afford to help host this pathetic pity party not ne'er another five minutes ago. That's just what it is Famo.

I'm not saying go full "50 First Dates" on me. Worst example; I'm hip.

Whole time tho, it's getting like that preacher from Katrina. If we joke around too much with life and God, the laugh will be at/on us. Flip-side?

We'll be running laps around almost all else most likely. Meaning that our legacy will rival the living legends; contentious contemporaries; and even that of some fellow future late greats.

"Stamp that, Moe." Heaven forbid we give that final account any time soon, of course.

All this and that to say that we're stepping back into the fray; come bout a week from now. That means tough questions need to be asked of each other; and the compound effect "actually factually" put into effect, Soldier.

Also, we "truly duly" have to make this a recurring theme. That being forgiving ourselves for this myriad of major muff ups.

From the terribly long list of wrongs said while we were drunk; to the wonderful women scared off otherwise.

Fucking aye. Wouldn't be fair to one another to keep ducking and dodging this plank challenge; 'specially not while we simultaneously assert that this spare tire "ain't where it's at"!

Now that this matter is resolved, and we're finally absolved: Time to get in today's last two sets of low planks, Bossman. As we're now known for throwing out there these days, Big Homie: Stay blessed up; prayed up; paid up.

Peace for now. One Love forever.

On the up and up,

Darrius Unity, Girl Dad (2x)

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Edit- 5AUG2022; 1313, FRI: The title and subtitle were taxed from the femme phenom herself, Cleo Sol. Specifically, a song called "Promises" off of the singer's sophomore album "Mother".

It came out on the 19th of August last year. Fun fact: Cleo's debut album is my first and only album review so far.

Apologies to her fine as May wine self and all her other stans for my folly of the non-attribution. Thx for understanding, reading, and y'all's overall amazing awesomeness.

Peace out.

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Prayerfully, you gained something pertinent (re: useful) from this post. If so, then please think about considering a show of support; however you may see fit.

Additionally, I'm easily reachable via Twitter. That's for private and/or public convos on the works written by me, my fav writers, as well as my other influences too.

The link in my bio will "counterintuitively" have that unmistakable tab in its main menu. Invariably, there's a tab in the very same menu cyclically returning you to my profile on this unfathomably superb site for writers.

Shoutout to all Vocal's inventors/staff/readers/writers. "[Y'all] the real MVP."

Lastly, if you're in the market for an incredulously original article of clothing or such: There's copious amounts at the link in my bio. Please don't believe for a NY minute that I'll be even remotely unappreciative of any all who "look out for the cookout".

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About the Creator

Nefarious Darrius

I'm a Grunt who’s been stuck in traffic for the past few decades or so. From DC to Seattle & Iraq; to back in "The Swamp". Also, I Love my Progeny more than life. Born Day: 4/20. Lastly, my apparel brand, War 'N' Tees is live! One Love.

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