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Being a mom is Stressful!

by Dalene Hultine 8 months ago in Family
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Why aren't more people speaking up about how difficult it is to be a mother.. These little humans depend on us.. But sometimes we just.. NEED.. breaks..

Everyone paints this perfect picture of moms, like we are supposed to be the perfect parent 24/7, 365 days a year or that because we are moms, we are not allowed to have me time, or go out. Well I'm here to tell you that that is fucking bullshit. Moms need breaks.. From their kids, from EVERYONE. Because if not? Well I will most definitely tell you. My youngest is 16 months old and my fiancé and I haven't had a break since she was born.. Its exhausting.. draining.. and I am fricken tired! If you read my last blog, you would know that I am 22, with 5 children(between Andrew and I), and that I have crazy ass mental disorders.. Yeah. My daughter, Ivory, is at that stage where she wants everything she sees and if she can't have it she screams for 20 minutes straight. Plus she's hitting and pulling hair.. She don't give a damn about anything. Then I am dealing with my son, Tobiason, he is 5 in less than a month, and he is a troubled child. He is on medication to help his ADHD but he has major anger problems and it is so difficult dealing with him at times..

I feel like a shitty mom. All I feel like im doing is yelling and putting children on time outs. I feel so sad and feel bad after every time I yell or punish.. I just wish I had a day to myself so that I could be a better mother to them. I want to breathe. I want to have friends.. I want a social life. My fiancé is my only friend that I have in this huge city we just moved to last November. So it gets pretty lonely, while Andrew is at work.. I wish we could win the lottery so he could just stay home with my forever.. But its wishful thinking. He thinks I'm such a great mom, he tells me all the time, and he praises me, but unfortunately I don't see it.. He helps me as much as he can and I appreciate it so much but I'm a stay at home parent. I'm around them all hours a day as he gets to work for ten to 12 hours a day, so he's super exhausted too. I feel so depressed.. I feel like I'm losing my mind and I feel shitty for even FEELING that way.. I tend to cry at night and think about how I can be a better mom the next day. But then something triggers me to just yell again and its a continuing circle. I'm constantly just going and hugging my children and apologize that mommy gets so angry, because problems or not, they don't deserve to be screamed at... especially a one year old :(

I will keep saying this.. parents. need. A. break. Or we will literally go fucking insane. I don't care how much you tell me you can do this all on your own and not feel this way, you're a fricken liar because children can be big ole assholes...

Mommy's please, I encourage you to reach out to anyone. A friend, family member, anyone you trust with your child. take a break every so often.. Doesn't mean go to the club every other day. I mean take a day to heal your soul. Go to a hotel, take a long walk, get a manicure, anything to do you boo.

I am FOREVER grateful to one of my best friends, Loretta, that lives an hour and a half away, but offered to take our daughter for the first time ever at the end of this month so we can finally take a breather.. I can not begin to describe how much I love and appreciate her. Andrew and I deserve this and I can't WAIT! lol..

Dalene H.

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Dalene Hultine

Hello, My name is Dalene, I'm an engaged stay at home mom of two children and three bonus children. I've got some time on my hands so I'll Pull my thoughts out and spill them on the pages!

Tik- @daydaysmilee

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