Making myself pretty for inner peace

Making myself pretty for inner peace

So, I found something out recently. I found out that not all women wear makeup. Literally hardly any of my real-life friends wear makeup. However, I love to. I say real life because I have several friends online, and they all do.

Even though I’m 47 I just now started wearing makeup, like six years ago, and I just now started getting good at it…notice I said good, not great. It is my inner peace. I really love doing it. Now, I’m no where near good enough to actually make money at it like say Tati, or Jaclyn Hill, or Nikki Tutorials, but I really love it!

When I sit down at my bathroom sink, yes, I said my bathroom sink, I mean I’m a single mom, can’t afford a separate room for a vanity on my income, I just kind of well, I don’t know how to describe it. I just enter my own world.

I love color, and my face is like my canvas, and I get to do multiple looks. Now, I’m no where near as good as all those really talented ones like I mentioned earlier, but I think I am getting better, and practice makes perfect.

I love the transformation I get from makeup as well. One of my favorite youtubers really demonstrates that. Casey Holmes, who has well over two million subscribers, when she does a full-face transformation, meaning she has no makeup on at the beginning of the video, and then has a full face of makeup at the end, well, it’s just amazing how different she looks.

It really is my happy time. My boys sleep in late these days, and I like to get up before they do and go and turn my playlist on and just…transform my face.

It is also a real confidence booster. When I go out wearing makeup, or even if I don’t and I catch my reflection in the mirror, I can’t help but smile at who’s staring back at me. But really, I just enjoy doing it for fun.

I will let you in on a little secret, although I guess it will no longer be a secret ha ha, but when I plan to use a particular eyeshadow pallet, I often open it early and plan the look, and this brings me such joy! Silly, I know, but there it is.

I believe another reason I like doing makeup, is because I have grown in my skill level. Last year about this time, I was horrid at doing a winged liner, now, not so bad. Not great either, but not bad.

I do this video series on my you tube channel, wear a go along and pick my makeup for the month. I call it, as do many other youtubers who also do it, shop my stash. Would you believe I use to get so excited about the new month that way before the first, I would sit there and pick it out in my head.

If my eyeshadow pallet collection and my lip product collection doesn’t tell you how much I enjoy makeup, then nothing will. Yeah, I have probably near two hundred eyeshadow pallets, and an equal amount of tube lipsticks, liquid lipsticks, lip-glosses, and lip liners. Yup, I love makeup. I am a collector though. So, that is what I do.

It really does stimulate my creativity as well. So, I’m not certain if this qualifies as something that gives you inner peace, because I enjoy it so much. You can like that thing, right? Well, I do. I am certain it sounds weird to some, since apparently not many people wear makeup, but I do, and I sure love it.