samara
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what do I want :
a healthy communicative relationship where toxicity isn't met with fire but with love or respect and being able to disagree and still showing me, love. I want to feel heard, I want to feel secure that I am being actively listened to and shown support through hard times. I want to feel like you in this because you want to not need to. I want to feel sexy without having to get undressed. I want a partner that I didn't have to settle with because I was lonely.
By samara10 months ago in Confessions
It’s fun until it’s not
I was just a teenage girl trying to find some advil because I was cramping heavily at the time. My mom would keep all her pills in one spot so as I was looking through , I notice a prescription for ‘ Alprazolam ’ . I would always hear about that drug heavy on the internet and near my peers at school. So when I notice it I instantly got curious and decided to see just what the hype about this was about . The rest of the day I felt normal , I was waiting on some big thing to happen but it didn’t. Until , I noticed that my anxiety would get worse when I would hang out with my friends and being out. That’s when the dependency started when I found out it was for anxiety. When I was on ‘xans’ I would be very hyper sexual , impulsive , reckless and i got myself in bad situations. However , everytime after a night out of xans if i woke up the next day feeling guilty about what I did the day pior I would take another one and i day by day I just used it to escape. I was happy I didn’t feel and I could just do because anxiety was always holding me back so all of this was new to me and I inreturn ended creating a big hole of problems and I wasn’t addresing them.
By samara2 years ago in Motivation