Penny Jarrett
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My ADHD Brain
Journal entry from March 21st 2017: I've had the cloudiest head ever and it's making me feel almost worn out. I constantly feel weak and unfamiliar. I'm not afraid to admit it now. I can’t keep trying to magic the "negativity" away when it’s clearly more than that. I feel like I'm constantly confused and arguing with myself about why I'm feeling or behaving a certain way or why I'm not sticking to or doing certain things that I have such a passion for and could do with such joy and ease. Why can’t I just force myself to prevent having to walk around carrying this guilt? Why, on certain days do I feel so disinterested? Like I have no desire to commit to the things and people I love and then when I do take the leap, I have zero consistency or just simply forget that I started. The confusing bit is on other days, I'm feeling so content yet excited and peaceful all at once and then I find I'm experiencing discomfort and anxiety attached to this feeling. Like it makes me claustrophobic to feel peace. I'm overwhelmed and on edge when I'm in my so-called desired state. How annoying! Does that mean I don’t "suit" happiness?
By Penny Jarrett6 years ago in Psyche