Guga Razmadze
Stories (2/0)
Mistaken but happily forgiven
I got married when i was 20 to a man that by all accounts wasn't bad, but he wasn't good for me. Long story short, I was married to a loser. He didn't necessarily do anything wrong, he just didn't do anything at all. Now, I am not a "typical woman" if there even is such a thing. I love myself. Sure, there are things I want to improve, but I don't have a problem with my age, or intelligence, or what my body looks like, or my personality- those things that seem to stereotypically plague women just don't bother me for whatever reason. I have a career where I make more than enough money on my own to live comfortably. I know how to use power tools, fix my own car, and google the shit out of anything else that needs to be done. I say what I mean, and expect others to do the same, none of this passive-aggressive nonsense. But I'm stubborn as a mule, and marriages are supposed to last, so even though I was the primary breadwinner, and did most of the things around the house, and raised my kids mostly on my own, I still spent 13 years in that worthless marriage. At the end of the day, my husband felt like I didn't need him, because I am very capable. But he was wrong. I needed support. I needed a partner, a friend. Even someone who would see how hard I was working to just keep my head above water. I couldn't manage EVERYTHING on my own; and I still can't.
By Guga Razmadze4 days ago in BookClub
Most known and unknown felling at the same time-L O V E
I’ve always known that I’ve had mental health issues. And I was frightened of getting close to people because I didn’t want to be a burden. I felt I was weak and I was needy and I needed pity. I can remember being terrified, absolutely terrified, of them turning round and saying ‘no, I don’t want to be your friend.’ But I have such a lovely network of people, and I love the bones of them. And I don’t think any of us have met and I think that’s incredibly powerful. It’s lovely that you can have such a strength of feeling towards somebody you haven’t actually met.
By Guga Razmadze4 days ago in BookClub