“You Look So Put together” Is Giving Me Too Much Credit

Today someone told me, “You look so put together. Like you’re so perfect in everything.”

And I was like, oh no. I’m not.

I have my flaws. I’m nosy as hell. I overthink things that probably don’t need that much thought. I get irritated over stupid stuff. Sometimes I take things personally and then realize later it had nothing to do with me. I can be stubborn. I can be impatient. I’ve made bad decisions knowing they were bad decisions.

I forget things. I avoid things. I say I’m going to bed and then somehow I’m still awake an hour later looking up something I absolutely did not need to know.

I have days when I’m confident and days when one weird comment gets in my head.

So ''put together'' is probably giving me too much credit.

I think maybe I just got better at carrying myself while all of that is still happening.

But writing all my flaws down made me laugh a little because I started with “I’m nosy as hell,” and lately I’ve realized I actually like not knowing everything.

I don’t need to know what everyone is doing. I don’t need to know why someone did what they did. I don’t need to know what everyone thinks, either.

Most of the stuff I treat like it needs my attention today won’t even be in my head next week.

And maybe I’m still nosy. I probably am. I just don’t feel the need to go looking for everything anymore.

Some things I’d rather not know.

I have enough going on over here.