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Women Psychic on Melt Down

Hormones (Horror) Menstrual Cycle

By Mariann CarrollPublished 8 months ago 3 min read
Women Psychic on Melt Down
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When I turn 12 year old my period arrived, they say it was red, mine looked brown cause it was there overnight. I had a very bad stomach cramps. Thank God, we had sex class in junior high. I know about menstrual cycle.

It was Saturday morning:

Me: My period is here.

Mom: You got your period?

My mom went to her room and got a huge maxi pad, my mom used a safety pin at the time to keep it in place in the panty.

Every month my relationship with my mom deteriorated. My mom was to tired to listen to me because she had three jobs. I had no one who understands or talk to. I started having meltdowns when my mentrual cycle, came.

My mom become more protective of me, because of teen pregnancy was at a high rate during that time. My mom bought a new house with my step dad the year after. My neighbor who was only 14 years old got pregnant. My mom keep me from being friend’s with her after that.

Little did my mom know, I have little interest with boys about sex. My other side neighbor has a 16 year old boy who had ranging hormones , lol.

Everytime, I was outside he would go up to me and show his private parts. That was the first time I saw a penis up closed. I ran back to my house to my bedroom put a pillow on top of my head. That was traumatic for me. I avoided him like a plague.

His sister was the same age as me, we became best friend. She also have meltdowns during her period cycle just like me. Since were together a lot our mentruation was always at the same time. We understand when we get moody or easily irritated. ( Some women can easily snap at anytime during their period, it’s the hormones)

My period time, I want to hide under a rock. I get irritated about little things. My brothers knew when to stay away. I could not control this feeling and I did not know how. The stomach cramps even make it worst. I got easily embarrassed during my period. It was very awkward for me when my period comes. It was like my mortal enemy of the month.

I learn to live with horrible thing called womanhood when it come each month. I become antisocial person.

When my daughter got her first period, I told her she can talk to me about anything. I even took her to the grocery store to pick out what type of menstruation product she wanted to used. I empower her to take control of her monthly period.

Not long after, my daughter started developing her period meltdowns. She started getting easily irritated and irrational. I understand the battle she was going through. It really have nothing to do with the outside world but those demonic hormones.

I told her to go to her room and calm down, when she can talk to me calmly she can come back and talk to me. She finally got controlled of her irritated humones and came out and talk to me. I did not expect an apology but I did got one. She told me she did not know what got over her. I knew, I never took it personal when she got that way but I do tell her talk to me when her hormones have calm down.

The best way I can describe this hormones, it’s like a tidal wave 🌊. It just overtakes your reasoning abilities. When I get that way, I am very silent and keep to myself until the feeling subsided. There are times where you can’t cause of work or responsibility. You have to recognized this and be mindful that it does not define you as you. It’s just a period you have to get through it.

( I hope my story has help and empower you, when you are battling your irritation hormones)


About the Creator

Mariann Carroll

Proactive for positive change.Born in the City of Chicago ,Illinois.

Multi race .Studied in a foreign country .Fluent in several languages .

fascinated by diversity.A Romantic and a dreamer.Interest in healthy living

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  • Dharrsheena Raja Segarran8 months ago

    Why did your mom use safety pins? Wasn't her pad able to stick to the panties? Omgggg, I'm so sorry about the close up penis! I would have been so traumatised! Also, I'm so happy you handled the situation with your daughter so well!

  • L.C. Schäfer8 months ago

    I gave my daughter a soothe basket. Lots of handy period products and comfort items. It's a tricky time!

  • Thank you for sharing this part of your story with us, Mariann. Your daughter is fortunate to have someone as patient & understanding as you.

  • Tiffany Gordon 8 months ago

    Awesome work! Fortunately my moods were ok but those cramps were no joke when I was a teenager.This piece was very empowering! Great job Mariann!

  • Wow 😮 - reminds me of Growing Up with My Sisters 😊❤️📝👌 Incredible job on this one❗

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