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The TV Reality Host vs The ex

by Eli Johnston 6 months ago in trump

Laymans Psychology Musings on how to heal both

The TV Reality Host vs The ex
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Dear Donald,

I married a version of you many years ago.

Nearly 10 years, 3 children, a goldfish and far too many traumatic experiences later, I also fled from it. In a terrifying 2 hour window of time. In a crisis. $350 cash in my pocket. Into hiding, barely able to breathe.

That was 2014. The road to now has been beyond difficult. So much to say, and yet I will not here. My family and I are still healing. In continued counselling. Our beautiful children confused and traumatised by this parents continued gaslighting; outrageous lies; their back to front victim mentality; perhaps all a consequence of a festering, unmanaged and untreatable narcissistic personality disorder?

He is a lot like you. Well, he has similar qualities, including your vacuous shell, your fragile ego. He is almost a cartoon cut out of you. Was blonde once also. Just a few years younger (possibly without diapers.)

Like my family, your country will need time to heal from you.

I do not live in the U.S. Thankfully, I live far far away from you, and yet your tentacles of terror have reached all across the globe via YouTube and media outlets. Your insidious, divisive nature has horrified citizens of our world, holding us in a suspended state of disbelief and shock, at the depth of depravity one man with teeny-tiny hands and an enormous ego can do in a position of power, in just 4-5 short years. That man is you.

You cannot see it yet. But one day, you may? You cannot bear to face this, or face yourself, I know. The enormity of all that you are, and more importantly, all that you are not, would be an almost insurmountable amount of pain to bear. It is, of course therefore, easier to move on and convince yourself you were the victim of others wrongdoings, absolving yourself and thereby soothing that enormous false ego of yours?

Historians will continue to wax lyrical for years to come.... dissecting and digging into the myriad of decietful ways you have destoyed parts of and nearly toppled your Country. Of the brainwashing cult like following you created. Your name forever, indelibly linked to nepotism, fascism, autocratic rule; an abuser of their constituents, their title and offices; anyone and anything bulldozed, ridiculed or bullied into submission, in your quest for 'more,' to fill that emptiness within. Genghis Khan, Napoleon, Hussein, Hitler, Stalin, Putin.... you were certainly not the first, nor unfortuantely, will you be the last of your kind. History repeats after all. And we, as humans forget... die off and the generations that follow, inevitably repeat the patterns and mistakes that the ones before us did.

I am not a psychologist. I have no medical training- other than experiencing the fallout that follows by being partnered to, and controlled and traumatised over and over, by someone like you. I do not believe you truly understand yourself, nor can see, the true horror and ramifications of what your behaviours, actions and inactions, your words and your beliefs have done to others. Nor the significant injury you have caused, due to your personality issues.

And I feel sorry for you, rightly or wrongly, just as I did for my ex. A difficult childhood- however that may look like for a child, invariably makes for a difficult adulthood; especially if unhealed, unmanaged and then hidden from plain sight, behind a shield of power, prestige and wealth.

My sincere hope is simple; yet conversely, the most complicated and difficult aspiration to hope for.

That your Country will become unified in your absence. That history will never be repeated again. I also hope that lessons will be learnt from your mistakes. Guardrails are reinforced. Mental Health checks are a pre requisite for any future Presidential employment.

Mental health matters. Truth matters. Words matter. Kindness matters. HUMANITY matters.

Donald, you didn't really want to be President of the United States, I mean outside of the prestige of the title, did you? You just wanted to be talked about the world over. To be fetted and fawned over. To be 'relevant', no matter how ugly or offensive it was. We all watched your WhiteHouse show in shock and horror, tuning in almost daily inside our homes or on smartphones all across the globe. You, the reality TV host with a dysfunctional personality, whose ego was so large, that rather than admit any fault, stayed true to your scorched earth mentality, to take down his Country, after he lost a popularity contest in November 2019. And what a long, ugly sordid show it has been. Relegated hopefully, to the box of NEVER show the re-runs. Now its time to change the channel, as the host has finally been fired, the series being cancelled with January 20 is the last ever episode.

Bye Donald, your country needs to heal now. And so do you by the way. Just separately.

Eli Johnston
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