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You helped me see the light in my darkest days.

Waking up each day was truly heart wrenching having an 8 month old, trying to figure out how to be a single mother. I felt stripped bare to the core trying to find me again so I could be the best version of myself for my daughter.

By A M Y Uncensored & RealPublished 2 years ago 3 min read
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You helped me see the light in my darkest days.
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Waking up each day was truly heart wrenching having an 8 month old, trying to figure out how to be a single mother. I felt stripped bare to the core trying to find me again so I could be the best version of myself for my daughter.

Starting over, but now as a mother - I would constantly be in the frame of mind asking the how’s and why’s throughout my day. Going back to work and putting on a brave face was never easy, but my daughter is my back bone and the reason I discovered my WHY.

- Why I chose to leave a toxic relationship to benefit us long term.

- Why I chose us over anything else.

- Why I decided to never stop creating and pushing towards a life that we both deserve.

- Why I started to set a mindfulness ritual everyday that would help me get back to who I am.

I was beginning to discover myself all over again, after feeling unworthy for so long and that I couldn’t be loved or wasn’t deserving to dream big and accomplish anything in my career. Once you have been in a manipulative relationship, you can truly lose your identity no matter how strong of a person you are. This is the reason why I don’t think my “why” will ever end because each day I am so grateful that I was blessed with an angel of a daughter who is now 5 years old and who I look at each day saying how proud I am. Not only of myself, but who she is growing up to be.

My goal in life is to always teach by living proof that you can and will achieve what you desire. Our lives could have turned out very different if I chose to stay, but my soul knew that we had to do this.

Each day presented its own challenges but that’s life, then add raising a daughter just amplifies everything so much more. I had and still have the most supportive network around me of family and friends. They have been my rock over the years and I wouldn’t be where I am today if we never received that emotional support that we did. I feel very humbled knowing that, but also not turning a blind to so many other women out there that were not as lucky. My heart aches when I think about it and to this day, I am passionate about empowering women and being there for them the best way I can to help them on their own journey.

My personal transitions in life have been huge and ever changing as I grow and evolve throughout life. Growing up as a performing artist and having a career in the entertainment industry for years into;

~ motherhood

~ single motherhood

~ business owner

~ published author

~ mindfulness product creator

~ and podcaster.

This is when I look over everything I have achieved and continue to strive for more and say to myself, I AM PROUD OF YOU! I have my daughter to thank because she helped me see the light in my darkest days from the beginning. She showed me that it’s now or never to pull myself through the hard days and get to that place where she needed me to be and where I needed to be for myself too.

One thing I will always know is that you are never to believe that you are trapped in anything in life, and that you choose to create your life the way you see yourself living. One size does not fit for all and it’s time that we are loud and proud of what we want to achieve in our lives to pave the way for our children. No matter what the circumstances are in your life, what you can always remind yourself of is that you are WORTHY of all that you desire and to grab the brush and paint your own canvas. Don’t allow too much of the external noise steer you away from your truth path and happiness. Don’t be afraid to be vulnerable and ask for help. Asking for help or guidance is never a weakness, it is your strength. Lean into that, and you will receive all that you truly desire in all parts of your life. Find the imbalances and discover your way of how you can balance them out for yourself each day. Become so aligned on your path that any negativity will be address with power and strength so it gets acknowledged, but not absorbed.

Amy Petsalis

Uncensored & Real

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A M Y Uncensored & Real

Sharing stories is a gateway into my life such as being a dancer in the Performing Arts Industry, Motherhood and Mindfulness. Hit the link for more and to see my I AM Affirmation Collection Products. https://linktr.ee/uncensoredandreal

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