Two Days After Christmas!

I've been thinking a lot lately of the spirit of Christmas how everything can change in an instant. Am I naïve to think that there is hope for the spirit to still be alive.

As a distraction, been to sick to even work on my simple business plans for AP Services. That's been so hard for me to work for my business prep because of having the flu.

So I went from having the flu having a full recovery to coughing so much my ear isn't about to pop, becomes clogged. The pain from my right ear is so intensely excruciating. If it's not one thing it's another and that's so annoying for me.

The most annoying, is when you get over a cold only to get severe ear infection deep in the ear canal. Oh god, the ER gave me ear drops so I'm lucky.

I hate being sick, every time I come to my country in the winter time I end up getting sick. I told Mom, "I will never come for visits in the winter time ever again if I can help it. I always get sick at least four times until after my trip."

Do you ever feel left out? I learned at my home family doesn't give up on family. How much heartbreak and disappointment must I go through to finally throw the towel and say I give up. I'm tired of being disappointed. I'm tired of being hurt, a misunderstanding over cheese, never seeing seeing as a redeemed sister. Apparently, I'm a huge pill to swallow, from my sister, to a good sister.

The only good thing about all of this is fate did me good. After the old man stole from the toxic ass is still causing problems for me and he is dead.

With everything going on I feel like I've not been the best wife lately scolding my husband for opening up to me. Instead of listening to him while he shares his feelings with me. If I would have learned this he wouldn't be afraid right now.

I feel as though this whole trip was a huge enlightened trip from hell.

Sometimes I feel, like the outcast with my blood relatives. But when I'm home in Saint Lucia I feel more of a connection to them in just a short amount of time.

How is it when you feel so lost emotionally lacking the love on a vacation? You feel even more excited to come home missing your husband, family, and friends.

I feel regret coming here but at least I can finally say that my birth family can't give me the love I really need. And the only person who can is my husband, and my family.

It gets so lonely sometimes in bed when I'm here in the town I originally left because I miss him so much. I can't wait until I am home I am going to enjoy my husband and family again.

I am never going to take for granted of anything that I have ever again. I am so happy that I am getting everything do. And tomorrow I will be able to file for my husband on the 30th, December, 2022 it's time (yay!).

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