Rant

I chose this image for a specific reason. It is how I have felt when I am not at work. All my life has been for three weeks is school and work. I am beyond stressed, worrying about grades and if I will have the ability to keep my job. This is not meant to discourage people from pursuing their dreams but rather to vent about everything that I have been doing.

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For school: I am in a community college but I am doing ten credit hours of classes. They are all technology-based, which is difficult for me. I am bad with technology for the most part but I have been getting better rather quickly.

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For work: I am currently working four 3-hour shifts a week. However, for more income to pay for school, I applied for a second job. I received an email today (February 10, 2022) for a formal interview for this job, after they reviewed my initial application. My interview is Wednesday afternoon and I am beyond nervous but I need a better-paying job.

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My living situation feels as though it is complicated but the reality is that it is not. I love my parents dearly but I want to feel like a real adult by moving out but staying local for family. We need each other but we also all need space from each other sometimes. However, now that I am back to work and school, it feels like I never see my amazing and supportive mom and dad.

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My plan for the future is quite simple. I want to be out of college in May 2023 and move out a few months after that. If I can move out sooner, it would be best for everyone, from what I believe anyway. I have seen it through some friends. They moved out, for school or just for their own sanity, and their relationship with family got way better, which is what I want. I want to feel close to them like I used to be.

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If you read it all, thank you so much. It really means a lot to me. I know it isn't much but I needed to vent about how I am feeling and there's no place better to do that than here for me.

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I don't want anyone to feel pressured but if you can afford to tip, even a little bit, it means so much to any creator, especially when someone is struggling. Thank you to anyone who really read it all.