Jax In A Box

So, I run a shop on Facebook that is basically a dud. I'm trying my best. I've only sold one thing. It was a knit hat and I sold it to my uncle. I'm pretty sure he only bought it because he loves me. It was the best $10 I ever put towards a pack of cigarettes that I ever made and spent. I hope I can do it again. Seriously now, though... Let's talk about this for a minute.

I love to knit. I'm a fairly crafty person, I think, as I learned how to crochet when I was little and taught myself how to knit when I was a teenager and doing anything that involves making stuff from scratch is totally my thing. This shop was going to be a money maker for me. I seriously thought I was going to have trouble keeping up with it. I was wrong. It sucks. I need some help! I have a bin of jewelry that was made specifically for the shop that I haven't even taken pictures of yet because I cannot for the life of me sell whats up on there. Except for that hat. It's making me wanna give up. Except for the fact that I'm not a quitter. Ask anyone. I've been trying to quit smoking FOREVER but I've been doing it for so long that I just can't find anything to replace the action of doing it. I'm a loser, I know. Anyway...

I'd love if I could clear out what's on the site right now so I could be held accountable to post more stuff. I really would like to make a little something off the stuff I make. It would all go towards medical bills and $#!+ but whatever. It's necessary. I'll explain.

I've been Type 1 Diabetic since I was sixteen months old. Yup. You read that right. I didn't officially get diagnosed with epilepsy until I was in my twenties but that's also been a life long thing. I've also just completed my first year on dialysis as I'm in End Stage Kidney Failure. It's a whole lot of craziness to deal with that, even with the absolutely amazing insurance I get through my day job, is so incredibly expensive it should be illegal. I figured since I love to make stuff, I might as well try to make some money off of it, so I started the shop. It's not doing well. Did I mention that already? My mom and aunt are trying to help me out by making their amazing products for me to post but even still... I have no customers! Yes, I've promoted everywhere I could, I have business cards, I have a digital newsletter that I email out to everyone I know. Maybe I'm overdoing it. I have no idea. UGH!!

I really want to make the shop work for reasons other than I'm desperate for money to pay my medical bills because the day job I've had for the last twenty (20!) years still isn't paying me enough but I love what I do and the insurance is AMAZING! It also helps that I work for the local school system so if, for whatever reason, I need to go pick my daughter up from school, everyone is mad chill. It's just craziness, really. I've been doing what I do longer than she's been alive so legit everyone knows her. It's really a wonderful feeling. <3 I think I lost track of what I was saying. What point was I trying to make? Oh, yeah... The shop is crap and I need money. Am I being too honest? Is there such a thing? I hope not. I'd be screwed trying not to be...

Is anyone else over me pitying myself yet? I am. UGH! The life and times of who I am! I thin I'm going to close this out here. I just got another idea I need to work on and it involves yarn!! I'm so excited! Maybe I shouldn't waste the time to sketch it out first and just jump right in...