Undisclosed desires

This is the story of Helena, a 22-years-old, attractive young lady, fulfilling her dream of living in New York on her own. After a horrible break-up due to a silly misunderstanding with a Millennial-know it-all at Starbucks. She finds herself stranded in a city that will squeeze every drop of common sense from your soul without any remorse. Every day was an endless parade of disillusions and shattered dreams until she started to document her life’s struggles on her vlog. “Runaway girl.”

Her naïve idea of sharing her life took a wrong turn when her new roommate Claire encouraged her to open an Onlyfans account. What started as a rebellious rant, ended up paying her rent and pushed her to quit her boring dead-end job as a cashier at 7 eleven.

In the zenith of her popularity, she realized that wives’ vanity is what pushes men to log in to her profile to find solace behind a screen. According to her, “Men are brute beasts with simple needs. My recipe for success is to truly listen to their demands, no questions asked.” Her new occupation makes her go shopping for food, lingerie and sex toys on a daily basis, “Many of my clients love to see me play with food, you wouldn’t believe how many requests to squash a banana with my toes I get daily.” She added, “An innocent stroll on the supermarket for six cans of canned spaghettis with a total investment of Six dollars with Forty- nine cents can give me a return of Five hundred dollars on a single, fun, and loud private show tonight. Even my dirty panties and socks have a price. Men behave like feral animals blinded by their undisclosed desires. There's a market for everything, believe me, everything.”

With that business-woman mentality, she plays the persona her clients want her to be. Her online alter-ego makes her earn more than four thousand dollars each month. Not bad at all for a romantic, altruistic, high-school drop-out girl. When her neighbors are at work, harassed by a never ending flood of to-do lists and phone calls. She is getting praised by her fans. Lying in freshly laundered sheets, moaning on demand. “This is not the rainbow’s end in any sense. I get calls at odd times during the day, some of my clients see me as their surrogate girlfriend. Sometimes I only listen to them, all they want is to be heard without any judgmental drama.”

For Helena, they were nothing more than clients. A mass of unsatisfied men craving for attention, but what could happen if the boundaries are being broken? What happens when the thin shield wrapping her feeling is shredded to pieces by pure longing for human touch? That’s the exact moment when hell break loose.

She got involved in a secret relationship with one of her clients. Raul is a 47-year-old C.P.A with a successful accounting firm under his name. He managed to plan the seed of emotions in the fertile soil of meaningless private shows with nameless men. What started as a simple coffee, ended up in scheduled meetings to fulfill their insatiable carnal ravenousness.

Things got complicated for Helena when she was the one on the receiving end. She tried as hard as she could to demand attention from Raul, (a married man with two children). Her foundation of financial security quivered under the strong gale of jealousy. The power of unfulfilled desires can push you to do the unthinkable.

This is a story of how the rational part of our brains clashes with its emotional counterpart. The wall of sanity can easily be broken by the weight of a simple caress.