Pandemic with Disco Lights
By Caitlin Grace McDonnell
When her lover is naked,
she is hers. When she is in
a black shirt and jeans,
she is coming toward her.
When she is in a suit
or religious garb, she
is someone who doesn’t
know her, even if she
is eating a chocolate croissant
at her table on the morning
before Passover when she
is getting ready to bury
a body over Zoom. Tonight
the daughter went to her
Dad’s and she mixed
a Q Tonic with Hendrick’s,
some lime and lavender
bitters. Mustard with big
seeds. Chocolate and berries.
She talks to her friends
over video about porn.
I never go deep in there,
she tells them. By the time
I’m looking at porn, I’m
so close that all I need
is the little window of
a woman getting fucked
from behind on repeat
and I’m good to go. After
catching up on her shows,
and at seven, opening her window
to the courtyard, where
the luxury building dwellers
are on their decks, an American
flag draped inside the rainbow one,
her neighbors in the old building
next door, everyone cheering
and banging old pans, she feels
it in her throat. Maybe David Lynch
is right. Maybe they’ll come out
of this a better nation,
softer, more able to see one
another. Christine texts
from Corning that she’s dancing
to DJ Nice. She puts on
her daughter’s disco lights,
dances tiredly in the mirror,
swinging her arms with
three-pound weights to keep
the bones alive. Before sleep,
she makes her lover come
over the phone. I’m deep inside you,
she whispers from across Brooklyn,
as her lover moans softly,
trying not to wake the children.
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