From Husband to Has-been

Being single is one of the most rewarding things you could do for yourself during quarentine. I’m sure there are a handful of couples at this very moment arguing over trivial things for being stuck in the house for too long. Unfortunately for You Trouble in paradise is bound to creep your way. Sometimes, relationships don’t always work out. But when you’re couped up on lockdown with just your wife, arguments can occur. Fight could ignite, break-ups could happen and loneliness is the only thing you might fear at the end.

It’s okay to be lonely, it’s okay to feel isolated during this time period. You‘d learned your lesson because like several relationships before this one, heartbreak was inevitable and unavoidable. No matter how nice or innocent your former ladie was to you when you were in love, one thing is for certain: You must move on and look forward to the future without her. She’s been on your mind after your big fight but you can’t seem to shake those words of what she said to you before walking out of your life.

See, unlike you, she has a support system and a group of people she can talk to to heal, whereas, your family never really cared about your wife because they honestly hated her guts. They didn’t truly accept her into the family lexicon because they thought she was a ruthless bitch you didn’t really love you anyhow. Your friends thought you were pussy whipped and overly controlled by your spouce, which cause you guys to go your separate ways over time. No matter how many times you give them a call, they don’t reply because they moved on dude! They’re living their best lives or have found a woman of their own and have decided to abandon you like you have done to them years ago once you met your beauty and the love of your life. They seldom only hung out with you that one other time plus at your wedding.

So here you are, wondering who has your back? You look on your new smart phone you bought with your estranged wife 4 weeks ago to check your contacts. You only have mom, dad, and your wife. Your Step-children are in college quarentined half way across the country so obviously they aren’t planning to talk to you. You aren’t cool or hip. You don’t really do Tiktok like your daughter in freshmen year college does, whose also on her mom’s side, not yours. What’s sad about this entire situation is that you’re laying on a filthy couch you found on the side of the street with a “For free” Sign stuck on top of the couchion. And your Cools Light is half empty in a dark, chilly living room inside of A dirty stinky apaprtment building owned by a shadey slum lord since your credit is messed up. You just moved in and heard rumors that the person who use to stay in your unit died from Coronavirus a few weeks prior to the coroner cleaning up the place while removing the body.

Headed to the bathroom,you notice a yellowish brown ring around the toilet seat and a wet cold musty doodle smell coming from the sink. Because you’re broke, the electricity is cut off. All of your money went to her, you couldn’t win.She took everything after you moved into your new place which seems filty and disgusting. Nothing more for you in life but to wonder where it all went wrong. Why did your wife choose to cheat on you multiple times with Tyrone? Why did she admit that his dick game was better than yours? Was it because of size? Why did she let Tyrone in your house? The house you paid a monthly mortgage on. Yet somehow that son- of -a -bitch has the keys to the house and you don’t. You can’t leave the house because your governor requires you to stay at home. Stay put, don’t leave, well, you really can’t.

Trapped like a lab rat, you contemplate on what you could of done to prevent this, well unfortunately, not a whole lot because she was planning on leaving you if it meant that she could of found someone who had much more to offer, if you know what I mean. The same person who had you scheduled times for you to be intimate, as if your sex life didn’t have any full value. And still, allows this other guy she sleeps around with to smash her whenever he pleases. Because she made rules for YOU but broke them for Tyrone.Dude gets to walk around naked in the house but dare you attempt the same thing and she’d yell “ put your clothes on, how innappropricate“ like a third grade teacher verbally disciplining a child in class.

Must mean you are just a kid in her mind. Nothing more than a loser, a geek who had to obey her rules. Since you were a geek, getting with her was as good as it could get and you should be thankful to even be chosened by her.Therefore, you can’t complain or make any suggestions because besides, you’re just a fucking loser and no one else will date you, after her, you have no one, forever alone, as a weird nerd with a dick in your hand so you weren’t allowed to choose what you sexually wanted. She married a child but wanted to escape with a man, a black man with edge who could break all the rules and is permitted to be as wild as he wished on your estranged wife.

Because Tyrone had options, and legions of women waited for get fucked long style by him on any giving day. But you had no game and no one really was looking to have sex with you so your ex was probably as good as you’d ever get. Your wife also had a higher body count than you and slept with 50+ people before the age of 21, but you only slept with her and she was your first. You only had her in high school.

There were moments where she wasn’t so responsive because she was probably whoring around, while you twiddled your thumb thinking about holding her hand and being her boyfriend. You weren’t aware of this because while you had robotics after school, she was in the locker room getting banged by the football team or having steamy sex in the back of a jock’s pick up truck. Whenever you suspected cheating, she’d lie and tell you that she was just with some friends after cheerleader practice. Sadly, you were stupid enough to fall for her head games back then as you are now. How about that time before your marriage where she had that bachelor party? Yup, she slept with the bar tender. OR that one time she claimed she she had that girls week out in Florida? Ever wondered why she didn’t check up on you? That’s because she was in an orgy and fucked all of the young college frat guys behind your back as you watched her kids from a previous relationship that you weren’t told a whole lot of detailed about. But you had a big heart so you bared with it.

She wanted a guy with a bigger dick,and always dreamed of a masculine and leaner physique. You were too husky and overweight, had a pot belly and was comparable to a Homer Simpson.Somebody like Tyrone on the other hand, seemed to be more in charged than you could ever be when you were in a relationship with her.

As you look at a YouTube video about why marriage suck inside of a dark room at night with no electricity, your phone battery drains out to 20 percent and is symboled red. You look unkept and unshaven for weeks. You’d go to the local strip club if most places weren’t closed or practicing social distancing. No prostitute is willing to come see you at your smelling and filthy slum apaprtment where roaches roam free, nipping on your Lomane noodles from Panda express that you ordered from Ubereats with the little bit of money you have left. Which by the way with your finances, wasn’t enough to cover next month’s rent. Your landlord is knocking on the door and doesn’t give A damn about wavwiring your rent.

Panaiced and scared, you hide under your couch and lay belly flat on the floor. coudln’t things Get any worse in 2020 for you? This pandemic ruins everything, took your job, your wife, your diginit as a man. you‘re stranded and with nowhere to turn. No one gives a damn about you in this town except your wife, well at least she use to, until she had a taste of Tyrone. Now she doesn’t care about you either.

And as you lay starring at the ceiling and hear abruptIy knocking from your slum lord, you start to cry because you know your best days are behind you. That virus ruined your life. While you were at the food bank grabbing food for you and your wife, she was getting dicked up by Tyrone. As you were buying cleaning supplies at Walmart to make your home clean, She was sucking Tyrone’s dick and choking on it. While you were applying for that job as a grocery store clerk, she was sneaking around with another man and you didn’t even recognized the symtoms until she started looking different than usually,and dressing more urban. She started to argue at your for now reason over trivial things that had solutions. She started to gripe about how ou opened the car door or how you don’t give her the dick she deserve. Until that one fateful night during the first week of April.

You found her in your living room getting dicked down by Tyrone and once you found out why she was acting shady, she pulled a kitchen knife out to your chest and told you to leave or she would kill you! She also said that you had 2 hours to pack all of your things as Tyrone grabbed you by the collet with his penis hanging out dripping in gue from the tip and screamed to your face “I’m the muthafucking man of the house, heard?” Spited in your face and preceded to punch you near your crotch.

And so for 2 hours you grabed all you could , ever though a majority of your stuff was still left at the house, the same one you paid for with your money, you were evicted.Now looking back, you regret even marrying this woman and start to feel guilty. But you did so because she was the only chick at the time who paid attention to you. All of the other girls probably thought you were a lamo, unattractive, a beta whose actions are dictated by predictability and no edge or thrill. Somehow though, even while this girl you choose had a history and her fun during college and high school and would of never given you a chance, she still chose you after all of these years. You remember seeing her in the hallways in high school with Chad, the lead foot ball player. You were just a geek who did the opposite and played Nintendo games or decked your card in Magic with other nerds.

She didn’t notice you until she was at her lowest point and life when she bumped into you years later as you were running your gaming store.At the time, she was just stopping by to buy a very popular video game for her son, who eventually became your step-son later when you got married to her. Who now doesn’t even speak to you. It hurts to look back at your memories.As you lay fetal position on the couch in a dark stuffy and smelly apaprtment unit.

”BOOM” The police bust your door open and put you in hand cuffs. You go downstairs to the police car and in the back. You spend the night in the police station because you have no where else to go. And when you’re released , you wonder the streets like a bum. You have no home no, and were officially evicted, no job, your phone is at the apartment so you have no way to call anyone. You feel worthless and felt cheated not only by your wife, but by life. As you walk under the bridge, you find a homeless community just hanging out eating garbage food from weeks ago.

You wave your hands and introduce yourself to this homeless pack next to the river under the bridge and tell them your story. The homeless dude pacts you on the back while offering you his liqure bottle and you gladly sip a few shots worth in the bottle. As you give the bottle back to the homeless guy, he turns his face towards you and saids in a gritty old voice.

“Some of us don’t risk our feelings on love and live the most fulfilling lives ever, but some of us risk our feeling and fall in love and end up living our very worse life ever”

Then you look at this guy and ask him how did he end up homeless. Then he replied “I learned that you don’t need a damn thing in life to make you happy, you just need experiences to make you Happy”

As it turns out, that bum you were talking to was a billioniare that intentially wanted to live homeless. How do you reply?