A Fleeting Wisp of Hope
A Johnny the Homicidal Maniac fanfiction and a side of Edgar Allan Poe inspired poetry
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"I envy your conviction."
Just words, but coming from Nny, it was the rarest of compliments. Before Edgar could say anything about it, his eyes wandered instinctively at the yellow pale of Nny's hand. Edgar blanched as those fingers reached for the trigger. Before the trigger was pulled, however, an even rarer event occurred. Their eyes met for the last time. Nny was almost captivated, by this man, by this total lack of social dignity, but he saw something more. He couldn't place what.
Nny's eyes could say so much more, but it was hidden behind thick layers of anger and confusion, blood and misled justice, acquired through many, many years, hard to dissolve.
Nny, for the slightest of moments, hesitated. The only light that was in the room seemed to hit Edgar in such a way, in such a way...
He was hazy for not another moment, and let his body go on autopilot.
Reality collapsed and splattered in a mess of fresh blood and flesh and glass.
Nny surprised himself in feeling nothing at the result, not a twinge of any emotion distinguishable.
Nny looked at the gore and forgot about why he needed it in the first place.
He turned and went to attend his other victims. Or villains, depending on your point of view.
I envy your conviction...
Sometimes he wished he had such.
He really wanted a brain freezy all of a sudden and to the great relief of a horribly dismayed man, tightly bound at the ankles, hanging from the ceiling, Nny went upstairs to the house. But then again, he really wanted to cut that rope and watch that man fall, he had set up a nice dagger pit and everything. Ah, hell, he needed a pick me up, and he was hungry. But then, something terrible happened, feelings.
Edgar Vargas had really gotten to him, and it was dead on, no pun intended. Something about the way he looked just before he died, something about the way he looked at him, something. He could not ignore it nor mask it.
He knew he couldn't feel anything for a dead man. And yet, a wave of uncertainty, of himself and his motives, slipped menacingly into his conscious.
So much so, he didn't understand half of the thoughts that swarmed his mind, like vicious locusts eating away at the logic for which he defended himself, the reasoning as to why he pulled that trigger.
Laziness? Poor judgment? The man had nothing, as he said. He wouldn't be missed.
Maybe he would've been something. Maybe, to Nny.
your conviction.
in such a way... it almost gave him
Hope
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Fin.
Author note- I originally posted this story on my fanfiction.net account. Hope you liked it! I love JTHM. And Jhonen Vasquez! I don’t own the characters!!
I always tried to understand and excoriate Johnny and who he was. I felt he had a heavy burden of extreme mental illness with the horrible repression of some kind of hidden trauma. All of this mixed in with anti social tendencies and a misanthropic sense of the world and of people——it gives off the worst results.
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Here is a dark poem I wrote as an accompaniment to the short story(Inspired by Edgar Allan Poe—-for Edgar Vargas❤️):
Raven Claw, on my jaw
rips through it just so
its eyes burn through me as
I try to hold on
I whisper
Do not let go
it's horrid blue eyes trickle with demise
and I cry tears of bloody lies
then I smile smile, smile
but all the while, while, while
The Raven was weeping
all along
The Raven spreads its beautiful wings
flies away, away
and sprinkles its mourning decay
a fine, powered dust melts into a musty
disgusting ooze
I sigh and close my eyes
it slithers around and
I lose control
choking me
I see!
The Raven seems to say,
"this is your lovely radiant gore seeping into me,
We are together...
Nevermore!"
Fin
I hope you all liked this side by side fanfiction and poetry corner! Heart me if you liked it! And happy writing and happy reading! -Melissa
About the Creator
Melissa Ingoldsby
I am a published author on Patheos,
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My novella The Job and Atonement will be published this year by JMS Books
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