FIND A WORK FOR 30 YEARS

After graduating from college, I immediately went to a private school to work. The beginning of the year was the time I quit my job, ending nearly 8 years of working. My colleagues feel sorry for the position of team leader that I worked so hard to get but now I'm giving up. My friends say why did I choose to be unemployed in the midst of the current economic crisis? My parents blame me for not trying. At the end of the school year, you leave your child in the middle of the market. Maybe only I understand why I made that decision.

Everyone texted to ask if they were sad or regretful. I'd be lying if I said no, but I'm more relieved than sorry. It's light because they just escaped a toxic environment, many factions, always full of intrigue, only focusing on each other's mistakes. It's light because I can escape the pressure of achievement. Relieved because I no longer have to work hard from morning until late at night. It's lighter because I have less conscience: I have time to prepare more thoughtful lessons, and I feel that the value I bring is worthy of the money I receive, rather than having to teach it to the end. It's light because I feel like I've regained my kind nature and don't always roar like a lion just to scare the students. My only regret is my young children. I cried until my eyes were swollen when I couldn't continue until the end of the school year. I was too tired, I wanted to give up and rest.

If when I just graduated, my job search goal was just to be close to home and the salary suited my needs, now I have a few other factors. I spent 2 months just interviewing for the position of a young intervention specialist (at the same time I was still working as a tutor), I realized that the places I went to did not have the same values ​​as me, when I only tried to put profit above. ignoring expertise. Where any degree is accepted, teachers just come to study and then imitate and teach. This both wastes money and takes away the child's golden period. Some places focus too much on communication, requiring teachers to regularly organize activities for the center to post. Preparing for an activity often takes a lot of time, teachers cannot separate themselves to multitask, so the teaching job is now left to the nanny to "teach", essentially babysitting. Some places constantly abuse children, verbally and physically. In some places, "hanging goat's head, dog meat table": consulting parents is teaching 1-1 but in fact it is 1:4, 1:5. Some places pay too low: 7 million is the official salary for working time from 6:30 a.m. to 5:00 p.m., no lunch break (for babysitting).

I'm discouraged because it seems like this is a "lucrative" market, when everyone is trying to switch to special education, because it seems so easy to make money, and then centers spring up like mushrooms, and then Online training courses enroll students continuously. If it were me 8 years ago, I would probably accept it and do it, because that's the system, it's the same everywhere, I can do my job well. But not the current me, my conscience no longer allows me to tolerate wrong. I'm not being condescending to appear superior, it's just that my views on education and the places I interviewed with are not the same. I also do not equate the entire special education sector to being the same. It was my personal experience that led me to my personal decision: teach freely. I don't have to bow to mistakes, I'm satisfied with the quality of my lessons, and I have more time for myself. At age 30, I dared to listen to my heart...