The Ravings of a Mad Woman.

Is this a story. I am not sure...But then again - what is a story but what the reader or writer perceives it to be. Right. Maybe there really is no right or wrong way to narrate a tale...we just improvise as we go.

This crazy article is, within itself - the actual answer to the question of a story which is 'not quite there' hidden within the context of itself...and why it may actually remain exactly where the end meets the beginning - WITH NO PLAUSIBLE ANSWER IN SIGHT.

Read on only if you have patience, an open mind - and a sense of humor!

What is Humanity.

If humans say that God is a myth, as most learned scholars will have us believe, and the true explanation for our existence stills seems like an enigma wrapped in a riddle. What do we do.

In my dreams and nightmares...the guy sitting on the throne is either God, some celestial being, or maybe even Santa Claus. He glows and his beard is so long and so very white, my eyes burn.

But I am always making my argument for why we should or should not believe in a higher power.

....Patiently, the Throned One watches... listening...never answering.

No great surprise there!!!!!

Apart from God, what other explanations are there for human existence. Who can I pray to, ask for help. I cannot ask the Big Bang. It does not have empathy.

If we set aside religious explanations like divine creation, there’s a rich framework of secular, scientific, and philosophical theories that attempt to explain human existence.

But, there are still innumerable reasons why I would prefer to choose having a God to yell at, pray to, beseech, blame and still have that warm feeling toward when I am in a good mood, knowing that when everyone else deserts me, someone...though unseen - listens when I need a silent moment to vent my burdened soul.

Yet, we still need to contemplate and ponder beyond God, ourselves and the universe. Wonder about the what ifs, the why, where. when and how.

The Ponderings...

🧬 The mad Scientific Explanations say that, (we actually designed ourselves over time)...Seriously? I would have installed some godly backdoors to reboot my system every time it began to show wear and tear. Would it be a cheat designed to make me immortal...perhaps a tiny bit so. Who could blame me?

1. Evolutionary Biology

Humans evolved through natural selection over millions of years. With enhanced survival and reproduction passed down, leading to Homo sapiens. ..making human existence the result of biological processes, not purposeful design.

Just how smart have our biological processes become...they keep failing us. We still have not found the secret to fixing ourselves...saving ourselves from death and decay. At least with purposeful design, we have someone to call upon in times of troubles and woes.

2. Cosmology & Physics...ah yes, the BB.

The universe began with the Big Bang ~13.8 billion years ago.

- Earth formed under specific conditions that allowed life to emerge. Human life is a product of cosmic chance, shaped by physics, chemistry, and time. Was that a big fail?

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Honestly, what were these other guys over here thinking...

🧠 The Philosophical Perspectives of Existentialism

- Life has no inherent meaning; we create our own purpose.

- Thinkers like Sartre and Camus argued that meaning arises from our choices and actions.

- “Existence precedes essence”—we exist first, then define ourselves.

But, at what stage do we become defined...we have been trying for a very long time...not much has changed with us humans over....well....

Since Modern humans (Homo sapiens) began...having existed for roughly 315,000 years, while the broader hominin lineage dates back about 7 million years.

Humanism, they say -

- Focuses on human welfare, reason, and ethics without supernatural, (do they mean godly) beliefs.

- Emphasizes living a fulfilling life through empathy, creativity, and community.

- Meaning is found in relationships, achievements, and the pursuit of knowledge.

There comes a point when this gets old, and we desire more. A reaching for what lies beyond mere humanity.

Absurdism

- Popularized by Camus, it suggests that the search for meaning is inherently absurd.

- Yet, we must rebel against this absurdity by embracing life passionately and authentically.

SIGH!

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🧪 Now we have become beings with...Consciousness & Mind Theories

Physicalism Consciousness arises from brain activity...neurons, synapses, and chemical processes.

- We are complex biological machines, and our sense of self is an emergent property.

Panpsychism & Emergentism...er, what?

- Some philosophers suggest consciousness is a fundamental aspect of the universe.

- Others argue it emerges from complex systems, like the brain, but isn’t reducible to parts.

Just how much of our existence did we have to install like computer codes to arrive at who we are today. Frankly, if I had known this in my early development...I would have done a much better job of creating myself and my inherent consciousness.

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Now this one I like...

🎲 Chance & Chaos

The Anthropic Principle (read full Wiki explanation below). Its sounds a bit too complicated to explain.

Chance

- The universe appears fine-tuned for life - but maybe we’re just in the one universe where it happened.

- Our existence could be a statistical fluke in a multiverse of lifeless realities.

Chaos Theory

- Tiny variations in initial conditions can lead to vastly different outcomes.

- Human existence might be the result of cascading randomness, not intention.

Am I a random being...I am too smartly built for that. (Even if greatly flawed). Something-someone intelligent, designed me...and I need to have a serious conversation with that being. I am far too frail.

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The mad ravings.

And now for the grand question - why are we here? The actual God part of the equation.

Let us go seek God.

Heaven and Hell - God and the Devil

Both never agreeing on what to do with this crazy thing called humanity

Does Heaven and Hell exist? Do we live them right here on earth, and when our shell expires...Is that the end of it. If there is no intelligent design, then the end is just the end. Back to the primordial ooze we go.

Is the end the same for everyone...the good, the bad and those in-between.

Yin has Yang...Heaven has Hell. There will be a comeuppance for every soul personally.

Should humans be sent to Hell or Heaven

This conundrum of Belief or Non-belief, is the bane of our existence.

We already have one foot in and one foot out of each - just poised to tilt over to one or the other at a moment's slight shove or jump.

So, God...about that eternal silence- when we call upon you...and get no answer...

What's up with that?

You can tell me, I won't tattle

It's just you and me on this lonely road...

I see you in the bright light betwixt the trees

It cascades downward like a glorious waterfall

Beautiful, warm and inviting -

An angelic glow emanates from within

Beckoning me come hither...

But, wait...am I dead -

Doesn't one have to be dead to see the light

Is that the road which leads to the Pearly Gate

Should I walk into the light...Is it a portal to Heaven

I have so many questions...where to start

What happens after we die - what goes on in

"THE AFTERLIFE"...should we be worried?

Wait! wait - please

The light is disappearing the closer I get

Maybe I am still alive

Is it only an illusion...the light has paused again...

Furthermore, God...

How come the Bible says, "Ask and you shall receive".

Are we receiving without being aware of it

'Cause I have not received a single thing that

I have been asking for, for a very long time...

Which gives those guys of whom I spoke of above,

a very credible reason for their arguments.

Humans lack the capacity for prolonged patience.

Why am I not amassing those wonderful promised blessings.

"ARE YOU SURE ABOUT THAT"!!!!

An ominous and loud voice bellowed

The boom followed by an angry flash of lightning

Which came prrreeetttty close to obliterating me

I cowered in fear

Crossed myself...said a couple of Hail Mary's

to atone for my blasphemy...apologizing humbly

Why does he constantly scare the bejezus out of us with

lightening and thunder...

I clasped my hands in prayer, bowed my head

and tremblingly replied...

"Well, I did get rescued from a few alarming situations

and I get along day by day...barely though, for really

if I am to be perfectly honest, things are tough down here

what with the devil always intervening, when we try to do right".

......Behind me there came a guttural growl

It was the Devil...now how the devil did SHE find me

She must have read my thoughts, for she growled again...

"JUST WAITING FOR HIM TO REJECT YOU,

WHAT WITH ALL THAT UNHOLY CLAP-TRAP

SPILLING FROM YOUR MOUTH".

Grinning, menacing and surprisingly lovely, I came face to face with the Fallen one, sounding quite pleased with Herself.

My Devil was a WoMan.

Pffft! I huffed, hissing my teeth. Angry at them both.

Here I was complaining about myself

And they both go making this about themselves.

Pfffft...

I am talking about when we ask for the big things - not the everyday, the banal and usual little happenings...I yelled...mad as heck

I want things like riches beyond my wildest dreams, fame (although fame I can live without), glory, exceptional looks - a mansion, a yacht, comfort, ease etc, etc.

Good health, finding the fountain of youth...

Some wealthy relatives would help - the type who lavish me with gifts.

I am talking about when we ask questions like those above about who we are, how we came about being here, and why we are here!

"UNGRATEFUL HUMAN THINGS...I WORK MY REAR END OFF TO PANDER TO YOUR EVERLASTING SNIVELING, AND WHAT DO I GET. GIVE ME MORE...MORE...MORE. WELL, MORE YOU SHALL HAVE".

Devil lady snickered..."You think he could say 'ass' instead of rear end, still as stuck up as ever".

These two were as bad as us humans...never getting along.

Thunder clapped again...then there was a silence, quite ominous and chilling. Devil lady pulled a vanishing act.

Manna started falling from above, and not just the sweet, white flaky grain type...huge globs of it. It covered everything, threatening to drown humanity.

See what I mean...I ask for answers and we get food...enough to feed the world a hundred times over...still, better than nothing, I guess.

"Ok, God...so where is the milk, this manna thing is quite sweet".

Silence...I guess he went home too.

Apparently, I was not the only one complaining.

It fell for three days and three nights. Favorite number of all Bible happenings.

"Repent, fall to your knees and pray for forgiveness". The pastors shouted over the airways.

Humanity had never prayed like that before...even the atheists prayed while the Devil scowled at them.

Ha! Atheists praying to God...That stopped her laughing.

No one found out that it was me why the world almost ended.

I least I got them free food.

I tried to repent...but I still haven't received answers to my questions.

I am still working on it. Pshaw!

The Devil WoMan waits nearby.

Grinning into her Devil Afro hairdo.

Ok, so all this happened in my dream.

There was a mighty clap of thunder which brought me frightfully awake. I jumped up as if electrified, hitting my head on something metallic. My reading lamp, hovering where it did not belong.

Now, I am fully awake. I had fallen asleep in my car in the middle of a thunderstorm. I looked around, fearful that God and the Devil were still nearby.

With all the serial killers running around, I was surprised to awaken still in one piece.

There was another flash of lightning...and I swear that I saw both their faces for a few moments that seemed to stand still.

Silence. Then everything returned to normal. I shook my head to clear away the cobwebs.

Still

Apart from God, what other credible being with empathy and emotions may I offer as explanations for human existence. Who else can I pray to, ask for help. Turn to in times of trouble. I cannot ask the BB, big bang.

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Still leaves us with GOD.

Now...do you understand why this story has no idea where to go next. Why it remains:

NOT QUITE THERE.

THANK YOU!

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Wikipedia - The anthropic principle,

In cosmology and philosophy of science, the anthropic principle, also known as the observation selection effect, is the proposition that the range of possible observations that could be made about the universe is limited by the fact that observations are only possible in the type of universe that is capable of developing observers in the first place. Proponents of the anthropic principle argue that it explains why the universe has the age and the fundamental physical constants necessary to accommodate intelligent life. If either had been significantly different, no one would have been around to make observations. Anthropic reasoning has been used to address the question as to why certain measured physical constants take the values that they do, rather than some other arbitrary values, and to explain a perception that the universe appears to be finely tuned for the existence of life.

This hurts my head.