The dad in my gilded box
A fanciful wish for a perfect father
Inside a gilded secret box
I store my varied hodgepodge of mementos
Depicting the slightly imperfect pictograph
Of the person I wish my dad to be
A giant, not in stature, but in the size of his heart
A clown, for the many ways he makes me laugh
A love letter, the one I found in mother's jewelry box
It said you love us lots, even more when you are away
A mountain, because you keep telling me that nothing
Is ever too great to achieve if I set my sights real high
The sky, because I see you in every cloud and in the sun
In the raindrops and the moonbeam shining on warm
Summer nights, you say this to me just for fun while
Tickling me silly when as a child way back when we played
Hide and seek and you found me ever so easily in places
That were ever so bad for hiding a little sprite like me
A tiny mirror, for I see your face in mine, looking back
Smilingly, with dark dreamy eyes and a cheeky grin like mine
Heart, for the many times you said
"I love you lots, for your nose, your eyes,
Your pointy little pixie ears"!
But now, the years are passing
The box is so full, but yet my heart still yearns
For the silly perfections where I still find only
The imperfections which you tell me are the very
Best things about the best of a father
For if he were a perfect specimen of a dad
How very boring a character would he be
You explain, making silly faces to prove
Your point so very convincingly to a child
Who knows deep in the recesses of her soul
That you are not the father that she has
But still she imagines that her life would
Could maybe have been far more
Extraordinary if the dad in the gilded box
Had spent the first half of a lifetime preparing her
With lots of fun and wholesome laughter
For the triumphs and failures along this road of life
The child knows very well that you are a made up dad
She knows now as she gets older, she must face
Head on, the reality that she has to keep the
Dad in the gilded box a secret from the real life
Version of the real imperfect lifelike father
Always hoping that if she wishes it hard enough
One day before it is too late, she will awaken
To the perfect imperfect dad in the treasured box
Having actually been her real dad all along
And life had rolled back, back to the beginning
Where her deep insecurities would not exist
Instead, a strong confident young person
Would emerge early from the cocoon of love
Laughter and the free spiritedness of imperfect joy
Somehow now, less and less gems are finding themselves
Adorning the inside of my secret gilded box
As I matured, and somehow the cares of life
Kept the lid of the box closed for want of time
To keep filling it with treasured gems
I find it gets harder to find the gems
As life marches to the sounds of different drums
A new box is needed
For expectations now differ
Needing to be found in different faces
The imperfect dad is gone
The box with my perfect imperfect dad
Still invites a visit every now and then
Still needing the wishes to steer me
On an easier path than this one lined
With pained mistakes that happens in life
While striving to accomplish the best life
Full of the possibilities which will enable me
To be the best version of me that you
My real fake imperfect dad would want me to be
I now have two gilded boxes
Because, you know
Life brings new acquaintances
New expectations
Yours is special though
It will always be.
N.A.
About the Creator
Novel Allen
Every new day is a blank slate. Write something new.
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