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The Holding Place
Very few people understand the true forces that are at play in the universe. Very few people understand that the foundation of everything ever breathed into life is energy. But even fewer understand how the power of frequency and how it works in the matrix and the force it has in our lives. For example, we often attract people in our lives that meet our frequency and then have the gull to ask why they don't have better people in our lives.
By Julia Stellingsabout a year ago in Confessions
Sanctuary of Light
The old mosque stood quietly at the edge of the bustling city, its green dome glowing softly against the glass towers that reached toward the sky. Inside, the faint recitation of the Qur’an floated through the hall like a lullaby, mingling with the warm fragrance of sandalwood.
By Shehzad Anjumabout a year ago in Confessions
The New World Order in the Post–Cold War Era
The New World Order in the Post–Cold War Era The end of the Cold War did not bring the world the peace many had hoped for. Instead, it gave new life to old fears—particularly those centered around the idea of a New World Order. During the 1990s and 2000s, the phrase became deeply tied to conspiracy theories, religious prophecy, pop culture, and political rhetoric. It transformed from a hopeful vision of cooperation into one of the most infamous symbols of control, manipulation, and global domination.
By Wings of Time about a year ago in Confessions
The Loneliest Role: Being the Strong One
There’s an invisible weight that comes with being “the strong one.” It’s the role no one assigns you, but somehow, it becomes yours. Maybe it’s because you don’t easily cry in front of others, or because you’ve mastered the art of saying “I’m fine” when you’re breaking inside. Perhaps it’s because you’ve always been the one who steps up—holding families together, carrying friendships on your shoulders, and being the steady voice when everyone else is falling apart.
By Nadeem Shah about a year ago in Confessions
10 Clear Signs You’re a Lightworker
Lightworkers are soul-driven individuals who feel a deep urge to bring healing, hope, and kindness to the world. They often sense a mission that goes beyond daily life, drawing them to spread light in places shadowed by pain or confusion. If you’ve ever felt different, intensely empathetic, or quietly pulled toward making a positive difference, you might be a Lightworker. This article highlights ten clear signs that reveal this path, helping you recognize and embrace your unique role in the world.
By Wilson Igbasiabout a year ago in Confessions
The Weight of a Confession
M Mehran Confessions rarely come easy. They are heavy things, sitting in the chest like stones, pressing down until breath itself feels borrowed. For Daniel Price, the weight had grown unbearable. For ten years, he carried a secret he swore he would never share, until the silence itself became louder than the truth. Daniel had always been the quiet one in his circle of friends. In college, while others rushed to parties and late-night adventures, he preferred libraries and quiet walks. But one winter night changed everything. He was driving home with his best friend, Aaron, after a late shift at their part-time job. Snow slicked the roads, and visibility was poor. Aaron had been drinking earlier, but insisted on taking the wheel. Daniel, reluctant but too tired to argue, climbed into the passenger seat. The accident was swift. A curve, a patch of ice, a tree. Aaron walked away with a few scratches. Daniel’s guilt, however, walked with him forever. Because in the moment of chaos, when Aaron had briefly lost control, Daniel had grabbed the wheel—jerking it in the wrong direction. The tree wasn’t destiny. It was Daniel’s hand. The crash claimed the life of a pedestrian, a middle-aged woman walking her dog. Aaron, panicked, swore he had been driving recklessly. He took full responsibility in court, and though his sentence was lighter than it might have been—his family hired strong lawyers—the mark on his life was permanent. Daniel said nothing. He told himself it was loyalty, that Aaron had chosen to take the blame. But deep down, Daniel knew it was cowardice. Years passed. Aaron struggled to rebuild his life, while Daniel wore his success like a disguise. He became a teacher, well-liked and respected. Students trusted him; parents admired him. But every time he looked in the mirror, he saw not an educator but a liar. Confessions don’t stay buried. They seep into dreams, conversations, and silences. Daniel found himself waking in the middle of the night, sweating, convinced he had heard the screech of tires outside his window. He couldn’t look at newspaper headlines about accidents without feeling his stomach knot. When he passed the street where it had happened, he drove faster, as if trying to outrun a ghost. Then, one afternoon, while grading papers, a student handed him an essay titled The Power of Truth. In it, she wrote: “Secrets rot inside us. They don’t protect us. They destroy us from within until there’s nothing left.” Daniel froze. It was a high school essay, written by a sixteen-year-old girl, but it felt as if she had pulled the words straight from his chest. That night, he wrote a letter. He began with, “My name is Daniel Price, and I have a confession.” The words came in a flood, messy and uneven, but real. He wrote about the accident, about the guilt, about the way silence had stolen ten years of peace from him. By the time he finished, tears blurred the ink. He didn’t know if he would send it, but for the first time, he felt lighter. Days passed before he worked up the courage to act. Finally, he walked into a church he hadn’t visited in years. The pews were empty, the air thick with incense. He sat across from Father Thomas, a man he barely knew but somehow trusted. His voice shook as he unfolded the story. When he finished, the priest was silent for a long time. Then he said gently, “Confession is not only about forgiveness. It’s about freedom. You’ve been your own jailer. Now you have a choice: keep carrying this burden, or let the truth set you free.” The next morning, Daniel drove to Aaron’s house. His friend answered the door, older now, weariness etched into his face. They hadn’t spoken in years. Without preamble, Daniel began to confess, voice breaking with every word. Aaron stood frozen, shock and anger twisting his expression. When Daniel finished, silence filled the space between them like a storm. Finally, Aaron spoke. “You let me carry that weight for ten years. Ten years of shame, of rebuilding, of explaining myself to everyone. And all this time, it was you?” Daniel nodded, tears spilling freely. “I’m sorry. I was afraid. I thought I was protecting you, but I was only protecting myself.” Aaron didn’t forgive him that day. Perhaps he never would. But Daniel had spoken the truth at last. For the first time in a decade, he felt he could breathe. Confession doesn’t erase the past. It doesn’t undo damage or resurrect lives. But it can change the present. It can turn silence into honesty, shame into accountability, isolation into connection. For Daniel, it didn’t mean freedom from consequences—but it did mean freedom from lies. And sometimes, that’s the bravest step a person can take.
By Muhammad Mehranabout a year ago in Confessions
The Truth of My Life
I never thought my life would turn out this way. If you had asked me years ago what I wanted, I would have said something simple: a peaceful home, steady work, people I could trust, and love that lasted. But the truth of my life is nothing like that dream. Instead, it has been a storm of secrets, heartbreaks, and betrayals that left me questioning everything I once believed in.
By Nadeem Shah about a year ago in Confessions
The Truth of My Life
There was a time when I believed life was simple. You worked hard, you loved honestly, and in return, life would reward you with stability, happiness, and peace. That’s what I thought. That’s what many of us think when we’re young. But the truth of my life is very different—messier, heavier, and far more complicated than I could have ever imagined.
By Nadeem Shah about a year ago in Confessions
I know I've been absent a lot here lately
Lately, I've been absent a lot from both Vocal and ViM. Many of my closest friends know and understand why I have been, but there are several who are probably wondering what's going on with Ol' Mother Combs. Whether I am alive or dead, or if I just gave up altogether on writing. Well, let me update my fans and readers on what's been happening lately in my life.
By Mother Combsabout a year ago in Confessions
I Swallowed My Truth for Years—Until It Nearly Destroyed Me
For most of my life, I was a master of silence. I smiled when I was breaking inside. I nodded when I disagreed. I said “I’m fine” when I was anything but. I believed that swallowing my truth was the only way to survive. It felt safer to hide behind politeness and people-pleasing than to risk the rejection, judgment, or disappointment that might come if I dared to speak up. But silence is not harmless. It doesn’t disappear. It burrows inside of you, turning into something heavy, dark, and corrosive. Over time, it eats you from the inside out. I learned this the hard way. --- Learning to Shrink Myself I grew up in an environment where feelings were inconvenient and truth was dangerous. If I expressed hurt, I was told I was “too sensitive.” If I disagreed, I was seen as “ungrateful.” If I tried to set boundaries, I was “selfish.” Slowly, I absorbed the message: my truth didn’t matter. So I became small. I learned how to read the room and adjust myself accordingly. If people were laughing, I laughed, even if I didn’t understand the joke. If they were angry, I stayed quiet, hoping not to fuel the fire. I thought this was strength—that being agreeable meant I was easy to love. But the reality was, I wasn’t being loved. I was being tolerated. People loved the version of me that never caused waves, never asked for more, never said, “This isn’t okay.” And each time I silenced myself, I lost a little more of who I was. --- The Cost of Silence At first, swallowing my truth looked like peace. No fights. No conflict. No one rolling their eyes at me. But peace bought through silence isn’t peace at all—it’s a slow kind of suffocation. My body knew before I did. Anxiety lived in my chest like a permanent tenant. My stomach twisted itself into knots I couldn’t untangle. I felt restless in rooms where everyone else looked comfortable. I smiled while my hands trembled under the table. On the outside, I seemed “put together.” Inside, I was crumbling. What I didn’t realize then was that truth, when swallowed, doesn’t dissolve. It festers. Every time I kept quiet about what hurt me, it was like swallowing glass—sharp, cutting, impossible to digest. And the more I swallowed, the more it bled. --- The Breaking Point There came a day when silence stopped being survivable. It wasn’t one dramatic event—it was years of small ones stacking on top of each other until the weight was unbearable. I remember sitting on my bed one night, staring at the ceiling, unable to stop the tears from falling. I couldn’t point to a single reason why I felt so broken. But deep down, I knew: I was living a life that didn’t belong to me. I was tired of shrinking. Tired of smiling when I wanted to scream. Tired of pretending things didn’t hurt when they did. That night, I promised myself: no more swallowing my truth. --- Finding My Voice The first time I spoke up, my voice shook. My words stumbled out messy and unsure. My hands trembled. My heart pounded so hard I could feel it in my throat. But I said them anyway. And you know what? The world didn’t end. Some people didn’t like it, of course. Some were surprised. Some pulled away. But others leaned closer. They said, “I didn’t know you felt that way—thank you for telling me.” They reminded me that truth doesn’t always destroy relationships. Sometimes, it strengthens them. With every small act of honesty, I began to feel lighter. My body loosened its grip on the anxiety it had been holding for years. I started to feel at home in myself again. Truth-telling became a kind of freedom I had never known. --- What I Know Now Here’s what I’ve learned: silence might feel safe, but it is not healing. Avoiding conflict doesn’t make pain disappear—it just internalizes it. And the cost of swallowing your truth is far greater than the risk of speaking it. I used to think my voice didn’t matter. Now I know it does. Not because everyone will listen, not because everyone will agree, but because I need to hear it. Speaking my truth is how I honor myself. It’s how I remind my inner child—the one who was told to hush—that her feelings are real, her pain is valid, and her words deserve space. I no longer measure love by how quiet I can be. I measure it by how free I feel to be myself in someone’s presence. And if being myself costs me relationships, then those relationships were never mine to begin with. --- The Freedom of Living Out Loud These days, I don’t swallow my truth anymore. I let it live outside of me where it belongs. I say no without apology. I say yes without guilt. I speak my mind without rehearsing every word in fear of rejection. It’s not always easy. Sometimes my voice still shakes. But now I know—shaky truth is still truth. And it’s always better than silence. Because silence devours you. But truth, no matter how heavy, sets you free. Thank you for reading this 🥰.
By Azmat Roman ✨about a year ago in Confessions
Skin Deep
I wake in the dark, my skin damp against unfamiliar sheets. The ceiling above me is a smudge of shadow, indistinct, as if painted over by someone careless. My breathing is shallow, uneven, and the silence in the room feels so loud it buzzes. I reach for the comfort of orientation—something familiar, a lamp or a clock but my arms fall heavily, unsupported by any object. I am not at home.
By Annieabout a year ago in Confessions
When Consent Isn’t Respected: What Happened to Me at a Swingers Club. Content Warning.
Last night, I went to a swingers club with my partner. I’m writing about this because I need to process what happened, but also because I believe these conversations matter. Too often, we’re told that certain environments — whether it’s a bedroom, a bar, or a sex club — blur the rules of consent. I want to be absolutely clear: they don’t.
By No One’s Daughterabout a year ago in Confessions