Nonsense

I sit to myself thinking, "Did I just escape communism in Japan, in 2023?" It took me a few weeks to realize what year it was again, matter of fact what century it was.

The clothes on the youth were hip and 90's with baggy pants and sweatshirts, to hide their starving bodies from years of chronic diarrhea. The elderly tried to cover up the side effects of Fukushima. However, I could not help but think about the severe illness that I had felt when living in those beautiful mountains, and in the small village town. As if I had undergone 4 months of radiation therapy or Chemo.

I can't imagine what the children have to endure physically from the fallout, or what the elderly endure in the winters. As far as I am concerned Japanese people are the strongest people on this planet. The depth and grief that Japan has endured together as a culture, is a form of communism in itself, or nationalism. It has its beautiful work ethic and system, its social systems, and secular belief systems, as well as a large population of agnostics, atheists, and those who believe in Science. At this point, the side effects of Fukushima have probably dispelled most of the community from the solutions that Science could provide. However, will the next solution be to drift towards communism, or to drift towards a unitary style of government similar to Thailand?

I sit in quiet reflection, comfortable and safe, with a full belly, while the man in Japan with cerebral palsy works for 5 dollars an hour. I cannot help but feel ashamed, guilty, lazy, and overly privileged for being born as a US citizen. Where I will not be imprisoned just for not having a job. Where trains can be more than a minute late. Where we can't just turn people in on suspicion, or misplaced trash. Where the suspicion of the secret police has not risen. Where homeless people and people with mental illness do not have to be hidden from society, wherever they may be.

I am guilty just for being born in a country where we have free speech, and the freedom to choose a religion. Where I am a slave to the dollar and not the government. It takes complete honesty with oneself to see the magnificent subtly of communism come to life.

I understand it is reasonable to place due blame on the Americans for Hiroshima and Nagasaki. The aftermath and calamity from such a nuclear conflict, cannot even be processed by generations far down the line. This is where much of the world is still plagued by an understanding of love and hate. This blame was valid in their right, and they deserve their revenge if you were to ask an objective outsider.

Perhaps, I am just insane, journaling away thoughts of nonsense.