Tragic

Song by Joshua F (LePhoenixReborn)

Tragic

-Background

I once had a friend I met on Twitch about three or four years ago. She went by the Username "OfficerJennyfer", a reference to the Pokémon anime's Officer Jenny. Jennyfer and I shared similar interests. We both grew up with Nintendo in our lives. The good old Nintendo 64. From what I heard her say, She would play with her grandparents stuff. If I remember correctly, she did not own much of her own games. She started to collect at some point.

When I first came across her stream, I noticed this nice-looking person, I analyzed her to see if she was worth a follow as I do with all the channels I followed. She passed as she seemed kind.

The thing about me, given my past, I attach to anyone kind.

Anyway, I repeatedly complimented her looks and her plushies and her craft. She makes crochet plushies. They are so adorable. If I knew the link to her shop, I'd share it here. But sadly I dont. You can probably find it either when she is live @ http://twitch.tv/OfficerJennyfer or in her about tab on that link.

The reason she walked out on me, was despite knowing she had a boyfriend, I would still give her compliments. I didnt mean to be flirty compliments. Just compliments to lift her spirits if she ever had a bad day by chance. Anyone I compliment, I just wanna raise their spirits. Ya, know, I don't mean any harm in that. But on that one day being Autism spectrum disorder, I said something in a way that I did not mean, I was just frustrated, I couldnt think of what to say. After that well, when she blocked communications, I was really sad. I tried every way to apologize. But I still wonder, "Will she ever forgive me?" I acknowledged my wrong, isnt that enough. I know many don't acknowledge their wrong and blame the other person. To be honest, maybe both of us were in a wrong. I said the wrong thing and she misjudged me.

A few months of thinking over and over of being forgiven, if ever, I realized the true tragic thing was her losing me as a friend, when she walked out. Not me losing her.

Now here are the lyrics I wrote up for a song. I am not yet achieved mastery in composing a back track, but I can write some good lyrics.

Song: Tragic

One day I came across you

Your atmosphere was cool

I stuck myself to you because of your kindness

I gave you my words

Complimenting every aspect

Hoping to free you like all, from curses

Such as those that bring you down

So, I try to bring you up

The day you walked out on me,

hit me so strongly

But you took what I did wrongly

I didn't Lovey Dovey,

No not ever.

Then I awoke from all the sadness within me

and saw the real tragic was you walking out on we

Losing kind friendship to a T.

Oh friend, it's such a tragic

You walked out on what could be Seraphic

Eternal friendship cut by a hatchet

We lost the magic, so tragic

My life all erratic,

But truly it's you that's become tragic.

I know that you know my words were clear

What you meant to me friend, was dear

Now you are gone, and no longer near.

Oh, it's such a tragic

You walked out on what could be Seraphic

Eternal friendship cut by a hatchet

We lost the magic, so tragic

My life all erratic,

But truly it's you that's become tragic.