In Q1 2020, I currently am 25 years old and this is my first time experiencing world crisis after I reach adulthood. The first time I knew about coronavirus in December 2019, I thought it is only going to affect healthcare and political systems; yet, after the Wufan’s lockdown, I knew it is soon going to be economical. And it is our first world crisis after social media interconnectedness-digital era that human mankind is facing new lethal virus with its unique challenges including hoax, mass paranoid, and over sharing for their preventive actions to protect themselves from the virus. The virus is not as fatal as plague in 14th century, influenza, SARS or H1N1 but the crowds’ character has changed. They started to stockpile masks, hand sanitizers, and food like it’s WW3; and the panic spreads faster than the virus itself.
Happy people are all alike, and unhappy people unhappy in their own ways. Some people grew up ignorant and thought-free, and some grew up depressive. It was 2009, when my friends asked me what happened, and I cannot believe it myself that I admitted, I'm depressive. It is not only me, but many people cannot ease the burden easily. When an accumulation of simple event caused discomfort, it feels like life hits me hard. Then unpleasant emotions (fear, dissapoinment, shame, grief, despair) dominating, our mind freaks out and rises out dark thoughts about what's been happened leads to what's gonna happen. It is like an pop-up adds when we cannot close the window and we simply cannot control them. The mind doesn't stop there, it thinks about an escape. An escape from the truth: gulping ISSR, alcohol, religion extrimism, sex, shopping, harm someone, and even suicide, as Nietzsche said 'letting the death enter freely'.