Whitney Riddle
Bio
I am a mother of two little ones and a wife to an amazing husband!! Will write about Love, Marriage, and Parenting!
Stories (4/0)
Roller Coaster Life
Do you ever feel like your life is a roller coaster, I’m here to tell ya it is. Now I am not an expert I just have experienced it and still am experience it. What I define a roller coaster life for me is when you climb up to the top of the first drop that is something that you are working on and then when you drop is when life is going great. You will have several big climbs, because I consider the big climb is a new chapter in your life and you are having to figure and work things out. It has been going on since you were born and to whatever you are going through now. When you go to the Theme Park you want to ride the roller coaster over and over, but in life you end up wishing you won’t have to go through the roller coaster again. I will tell ya though when you keep going on the roller coaster it makes you stronger. I hope you don’t think that life is easy because the Man upstairs gives us obstacles to learn and to have more faith in Him and yourself. Believe me I have had several roller coasters and some I never knew if I was going to get over the very first climb, but I always did. It isn’t easy by no means, it is hard, but you need to keep fighting through it because if you don’t your ride will never end. I believe everyone can make it because once you do it makes the next climb much, much easier for you to climb over.
By Whitney Riddle4 years ago in Humans
What I learned about Relationship
In my past relationships, I did have great communication because I was afraid if I said anything it would make things worse. So I just agreed with what the other said and took what the other said. It broke my heart, but at least I had someone like everyone else right? Wrong. I didn’t really have anyone, why was I kidding myself? I didn’t have anyone that really cared what I think, I was just a toy to them, yes a toy. It made me feel horrible about myself, made me depressed, I cried probably everyday asking why don’t they want me? There was times I would just drink by myself, to sort of numb the pain, but all that got me was very dizzy and nauseated. So that didn’t work, I never got into the drugs because man I probably would be rolling in a lot of puke. Honestly, I know that is a problem for some but I don’t get it. Maybe something was telling me yeah Whitney you don’t need that. So I cried and figured that was a good plan. No all I could really do was try and try. Didn’t get me anywhere but more sadness. Until I met my husband, now he had problems with his last relationship. There was never no communication with her either. So that first two weeks of us texting each other before we met. We laid everything on the table, and even the night we had our first date. Man I didn’t think we had that much to say but we did. But honestly I think there was a reason someone from above sent the past relationships to me, because he brought me this wonderful man. Now our first few months were still a test for us, because he still was having issues with what his ex wife did to him and still was afraid to really let those walls down. But something kept pushing me to break those walls. I mean I had to convince him I wasn’t going to just drop everything and leave. I don’t do that I mean I stayed in my previous relationship for 4 years, even though he didn’t call it a relationship because he was still messing around with other girls. I didn’t even mess with anybody else because I was being faithful for no damn reason. But I knew that his ex wife wasn’t faithful, I knew how that felt having someone cheat on you. I mean it was hard for me because he lived an hour away from me and I didn’t know what he was doing, but something told me Whitney it will be ok. So I tried and tried and tried, for the first time I laid everything down and I actually fought. I fought for myself, I fought for him, and I fought for this relationship. I know what you are asking well didn’t you fight for the other because you were with them for 4 years? No I didn’t, I thought I did but that really wasn’t fighting, that was surrendering. When I mean fighting, I mean sticking up for yourself, fighting for communication from the other, fighting for their respect and love, fight for them. It also works the other way, when the other fights for the same things too. It brings that safety feeling, loving feeling, and attraction feeling to back to you, and makes you feel worthy.
By Whitney Riddle4 years ago in Humans
Love
What is really Love? Well I never really understand what Love was!! The only Love I thought was from Romantic Comedies, a fantasy, a fairy tale. I grew up watching Grease, Sweet Home Alabama, My Best Friends Wedding, and so many more!! I was wanting a relationship like that and that is what I was trying to look for, buuut no that is not what I found. My first relationship was may a practice run, really was a good one. He lived in a different town and I another, but I was the one that was really trying to make an effort for it. I found out that it wasn’t going to work out because I had a pregnancy scare and he pretty much told me I can’t do this!!! Well that really made me feel horrible about myself because (“THANK GOD, I wasn’t pregnant) if I was I would of been having to be a parent by myself. I mean how would I be able to handle it!! This actually started me to party a little bit, it wasn’t as extreme like some would but I would want to do a little drinking!!
By Whitney Riddle4 years ago in Humans
Beginnings
How do you begin again, when you don’t have no more drive, faith, or hope? Well I will tell you it is very hard!! I was in a dark cold place, heart was broken, I felt like I was worthless, beaten down to nothing emotionally and felt like no one would ever love me. How do you find yourself, how do you feel better about yourself, how do you find love!! Well in 2011, I thought maybe the guy I was with would wake up and see me, but no, no he saw someone else and I was finally after four years of not knowing who I was to him, tired of being a doormat, tired of being the designated driver at 2:30 in the morning, and tired of having my emotions played with!!! So I made the decision to move on and find true love. And man I found it, it took me a few tries but I found the man that put my heart back together, and made me into a strong woman!! He started my journey to find myself. Now I know what your saying I don’t need a man to help find myself and your right you don’t but for me, I needed this man to help me find myself. I will make this my series of how I was able to find myself!
By Whitney Riddle4 years ago in Humans
