A born to be introvert. I am empathetic and sympathetic to others because, I either know how it feels or couldn’t imagine how it feels, to be in their shoes. I’m a dreamer but my goal is to be able to help others and bring my dreams to life
TASTE BUDS IN NEED OF SPICES
Eating food is a need, we need food to survive and to keep going. Once you enter the land of spices and herbs you realize, it's not just about a need, it's about a pleasure, a desire, the filling of a craving. The first time I cooked anything for a group of people was at my first potluck, I had never been apart of anything cooking wise prior and it made me nervous to know my cooking would be judged by strangers. I had to sit back and think for a minute about what to bring, and then it hit me, the one recipe everyone says I make perfectly is the only thing I would be able to cook for this occasion.
A Graveyard is nothing but a home of the dead, made for the living. - JadedAge
And in that moment her heart started to beat out of her chest as all of their memories came flooding in. The tears the pain the frustration the love, she was overwhelmed with angst and cheer, to feel close to him again but only while being here. It wasn't the body of the person but yet the memories created with the person that created a feeling of a void. To know those memories would never happen again, and could never be replaced, that thought is what kept creeping in. She couldn't escape her feelings of guilt for being there without her, but most of all to be there with someone else. But she needed this like she needs food, she needed to sever her ties with her once known to be love, she needed to be free to do as she pleases without feeling guilt for doing so.
Happiness is a choice
Do we choose to be unhappy; or is there just a time for our emotions to kick in for us to choose a different route? I believe that happiness and faith are similar concepts. You have faith in things you believe to be factual, whether that’s god, science, witchcraft, herbs, medicine and etc. It’s all a choice, just like happiness. The facts are that you have many reasons to be happy whether you find them to be valid at that point in time or not. Sometimes the bad has to outweigh the good so that we can appreciate the smaller things, and give them greater power than the evil that surrounds us. No matter how little the light in the darkest tunnel, there's still a light to guide you to your new beginnings. Please pick your head up and follow it to its source, we are all meant to win, even if that means taking a lost, so tread lightly and enjoy the ride. The present is most certainly a gift even if you can't see it's value its worth much more than the retail price and you deserve to be here wearing a smile just as much as your tears deserve to be recognized.
Drink That Away
We drink away our pain sometimes because it feels good, better then what we were feeling before. We drink to forget, forget our failures, loses, constant reminders and things. We drink to live when we know longer feel like living , and sometimes we drink because we've already died inside. Either way we're drinking for the moment, and that's when becoming an alcoholic becomes a risk.
Walk Don't Run
Some things aren't for everyone, and I've never been the type of personal that finds solace in meditating. I feel worse after a moment of silence than the rare occasion of feeling better. Although, all those things are true, I do meditate and ground myself, but I don't set aside time for it, I take whatever silent moment I have on the train, or in my car, at work to just recognize everything within me, and surrounding me. My mind is a beautiful thing but it has a hard time being quiet, which is why I don't meditate for too long, and I refuse to sit down crossing my legs and open up doors i will be forced to shut back again. Then again, maybe that's my problem, maybe that's why this meditation thing only works for me while i'm busy because i am capable of escaping and finding a busy activity to do moments after, versus having to sit an entire car ride reflecting, or walking into a place in silence, just reflecting, maybe I like walking meditation, because by the time i get back to it, it doesn't hurt anymore, but in a way time, all that busy time, healed those wounds. How do you meditate though, when you feel like this:
Happiness is supposedly based on the warmth of your heart. Therefore, we all have happiness inside of us as long as we are living, if you'd like to think of it in that way. Your happiness could also be dependent on how helpful and kind you are to others, the warmth of your heart is the generosity of your character. No matter which one happiness is based on, it doesn't work without a smile, and laughter, the delivery of your generosity matters.
Without A Guide
My mother used to tell me all the time, “There's no book to tell you how to be a parent, I've tried my best with what I had and hoped for the best." She's right there's no guide to be a parent, in this world your criticized if your children are not of the best standards, or more well off than you were, but if they become than you then they say what adverse challenges for one had to overcome to have grown up in such a life. Well, mom this one's for you.