Why can't I just ever be the one.That he tells me I'm beautiful and I shine like the sun.That he wants to call and speak on the phone. Or always be with him so he's never alone.Who he thinks about, all day long.And helps him feel better when things go wrong.I want to be the one who gets chosen first.Who makes him feel so happy, he just wants to burst.
I am a model. I have been doing it since 2012 but that is not what I tell people. I don't tell people I am a model. Why do you think that is? Is it because I don't want to be judged? Is it because I am scared of what people say? The reason is none of those things. It is because once I tell people I am a model questions fly in their heads. I am then labeled as that model girl. The questions tend to be all the same. How are you a model your not that tall? How are you a model you have tattoos? How are you a model they are thin? How are you a model you have flaws? I get instantly observed and looked at. Yes, I am short and yes I have things a typical model doesn't and why is that? That is because the "normal model" are all skinny, tall, exotic, long legs, and interesting. That is the type of model society makes us think about. Not models like me.