I’ve written you a letter of promise to love you, to be faithful and to make a lifetime full of amazing memories.
The moment the world stops. You can hear yourself trying to catch your breath and your heart is pounding out of your chest. A moment a father screams out, "Oh, God No, Not My Baby" when the police came knocking at the door. It is a moment that you can't explain or fully paint a picture of a parent's heart being ripped out of their chest. The breath was taken from you to try and grasp what was just said. Trying to remain in your body when you feel like an empty shell. Our hearts stopped beating the moment she drew her last breath but we didn't know it until the news broke and her babies were without a mom.
June 14, 1988, I was born weighing six pounds and fourteen ounces. I was my mother's second child and now I am one of eight children. She will tell you today that I am most certainly her most stubborn one, truly living up to all the tales of red-headed girls with freckles. I was also the child that became an adult before I was ready. Being outnumbered, my parents needed help especially mom. Daddy had to work a lot to provide food and shelter. My parents would say my intelligence could speak volumes of the places I could soar just as long as I spread my wings.
For those who personally know me would be baffled that I would find Eminem as my doppelgänger though it’s not looks we are talking about. His music and life that he welcomed you in to is full of darkness, drugs, slashing wrists, domestic violence, fame, children witnessing it all and begging for their dad to stay. It’s a massive chaos of this man’s life that all began as a young child being raised by a single mom in a rough neighborhood. His life story is full of pain, some cringe at what he allows you to know and sing about. What he allowed his daughters to witness when he was grown. It’s a cycle that most children find themselves in, repeating the past of their parent(s) or and what they grew up to see.
Has any one ever asked you what you wanted? Have you been asked to set aside your partner, your kids, your job, your family and everyone else to honestly zero in on just you? To focus on what it is that you want and makes you happy? Have you looked at your present situation in your life and really soaked it all in to see if you are truly happy? To decide if you want to improve something in your life, or about you? To sift through everything and see what makes you happy and doesn’t make you happy? What can be changed or improved? If anything should be changed.
You’ve been read the fairy tale stories about love and how Prince Charming will one day whisk you away. The blissful and endless love of admiration. No tales of fights, arguments or anything ugly. The beauty of it all capitivates you and makes you long for that.