What if I don’t?
Marriage at 23
I married at 21. Something that I haven’t ever really just sat down and contemplated is the question, "what is love"? Yet, I seem to get asked that a lot, at random. Love is unconditional. Love is caring, selfless, kind, patient. Love is a choice. It’s something that doesn’t always just come to you, as I had once believed. I thought that when you get married, somehow everything falls together and it just came to you on how to love. How very wrong I was. Marriage isn’t hard like so many around me seemed to believe. Love is hard. Choosing someone over and over again is difficult. It’s even more difficult if you don't’ love that person or have it in you to commit. This is why it’s so important to choose your partner wisely and know that you’re committing to them for the rest of your life. Not just when you feel like it, not until they get crazy and you want out, not when it’s just the good days. Those vows that are said are said for a reason and are supposed to mean something. How unfortunate that our generation has slowly taken marriage and made it into something that’s like a relationship. You can leave whenever you want or if it gets to be too much. No. That’s what dating is. You’re not dating this person, you’re married to them.
Nov 21, 2020
What is thankful? Dictionary.com defines thankful as, “feeling or expressing gratitude; appreciative,” (Thankful. 2020. Retrieved from https://www.dictionary.com/browse/thankful?s=t). But what is thankful to you? When someone asks you this question, do you come to a brick wall? Do you have a moment of pausing because you can’t think of anything to be thankful for? Do you have a list of a million things that go flying off like sparks because there are too many to name? Or do you have tears that swell up in your eyes like me because you’ve been stuck in both. I know for some this year has been a year in which many have lost their jobs, many have become homeless, many feel like they're losing it all, many have been separated from families, some have had to learn, (for their first time) to teach, cook, and work from home. Some have even fallen in love with this while others it’s been really tough. That’s ok, the reality is that there is always something we can be thankful for. That might be a hard pill to swallow for some more than others, depending on where you are in your journey.