How can your life be ruined even before you started? Maybe not ruined, but certainly damaged. Such a damaged human being from the start. I always felt disconnected from every person, but most of all, family. I would be the one who was a goody-goody, while my sisters rebelled. They always treated me like the annoying youngest sister. The only one who wouldn't go out. The one always upset. Always jealous and longing for love and attention.
Sometimes I wonder what w'ere all doing here. We are just placed on this earth. Some of us have more freedom than others. Some of us born into rich families, others born into poor. Growing up and being in the real adult world can be shocking and exhausting. Sometimes even humanity surprises me and I don't think I can take it anymore, whereas other times I can be purely inspired by stories and kindness seen from people. Life and career just seems like a rollercoaster, all the time. Sometimes when it actually feels good and happy, something backfires only to reveal that it was too good to be true. What is the point? I don't get it.