I am a single mom of three beautiful kids. Love to write in my free time on things going on or that have happened in my lifetime. Hope you enjoy!
The Unknown World
Ever wonder what lies beneath the sky limits? Is there a world of unknown that we have no idea about where everything is completely different? Or maybe it is the exact same.. let me tell you a story of this time where all of my daydreams of this unknown world came true…
"Just Let Life"
When I think of one woman that has changed my life, it has been my Grandma. This is a lady that would put up with everything from my Grandpa screaming "Woman! Get me a sandwich." to grandkids coming to her house just for some cookies and a talk at the kitchen table.
Why You Don't Trust
Trust! That is a loaded word if you have been through the ringer of events with people you thought would never break you down. Hearing that your family talked bad about you at an event is never fun. Or having a spouse cheat on you is not the best thing to wake up to the next day. What happens if you never trust someone again? Will that feeling of untrusting go away? How can you have love if you don't have trust with anyone?
Love Hate Past Time
I loathe you. I cringe at the sound of your name even when it isn’t referring to you. I absolutely hate the things you have put me through. It’s been years since I have seen you and I can still hear your slashing words towards me, killing every ounce in my body. You walked all over me like a child in the middle of a stampede. You have made me lose all hope in love and in being loved. You have made me question every ounce of “love” I thought I felt in my lifetime. Is it really love? Is it really love when someone literally manipulates, lies, and makes your self-worth feel like the size of a pencil dot on a piece of paper? Is it really love when someone makes promises that they have never once kept? Is it really love when you cry yourself to sleep because you feel like absolutely nothing? Empty, lonely, and pathetic.
Stop Dwelling on the Past
No matter how hard you are on yourself, you can't be stuck on the past. If they ever had a time machine, people would be stuck on it. You know why? Because no matter the outcome everyone wants to always change one thing that happened. I have learned that no matter what nothing will ever be as fantastic as you would want it so just go with the flow.
The Struggle Is Real
Falling into a pit of utter failure while eating your last box of rice and beans can feel a bit like you will never get out. Some days it may be struggle to get out of bed because you feel like you are going to get nowhere or that you just can’t do it. Getting sucked into your negative thoughts as if they are a vacuum piling the dirt and dust of your life, all into one spot. Stagnate and stuck like it’s never going to go away.
An Open Letter to My Kids
To my babies: I never was ready to be a mom! I never thought I had it in me to take care of you. But I do! I love each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart. So much that some days my heart could burst if it were allowed. The three times that I endeared the joys of giving birth to you all left me speechless and filled with tears the moment I looked at each of your little eyes. I did that and was a part of creating you.