The Broken Wings of a Little Blackbird
I have always had trouble making complete sentences when I'm nervous. That is why I have never gone on a date, much less a blind date. I'm too nervous to sit down face to face, alone, with a prospective lover. All my boyfriends were made by accident or by way of friendship. When I hear that one of my friends is going on a date, I get anxious for them. Here I am, thinking about the blind date I'm about to go on. I think about all the times I embarrassed myself because I was so nervous and couldn't be myself. Oh, it is so painful to reflect on those memories. It only heightens my anxiousness.