The Journey Back To Work
There is a remark I once heard years ago. I was nearly twenty years old. I had been unemployed for just over six months. Almost a year before that I had been working in a care home as a Care Assistant and I loved it but an accident led to having to take six weeks off of work and I was let go. I was also in the early stages of pregnancy and despite looking for work caught between recovering and being pregnant no one wanted to hire me so I was enrolled in a six-week course to give me extra help in finding work. Upon finding out I was pregnant one of the trainers informed me that I would find it the hardest of everyone there to find work and that it would never be easy for me. At that point in time, I did wonder if this was purely down to the fact I was pregnant at such a young age or due to my appearance at the time combined with such.
For Better or for Worse?
When I was approximately 30 years old I was diagnosed with depression. For me, that was not really news but just a statement of fact, an understanding that no matter the good times ahead or the bad this would likely be an aspect of myself that would continuously be there and would be a hindrance to my life and possibly the lives of my family.
I hold the compass in my hand, wishing the needle would no longer turn, ceaselessly spinning, endlessly turning until even the rose of winds becomes a blur and home is gone.
On the 9th of November 2016 Warm Lamp games released their game, Beholder. The game is inspired by totalitarian stories written by the authors George Orwell, Aldous Huxley, and Ray Bradbury.
I smile as I watch the clouds fly by, wishing I could feel there freedom and see what they see. I smile with my lips while I frown with my heart. Seeing nothing, feeling nothing but the chains. Chains that weigh me down, make me drown in air. Chains that are not mine. Each link a sin I did not do but someone had to pay the dues.
'Dead By Daylight'
On the 14th of June 2016 Behaviour released a new game called Dead by Daylight. This game was one of the first of its kind. The game is an asymmetrical multi player horror game in which one killer tries to kill four survivors in order to feed the god (or goddess) of the realm known as the Entity.