Rayna Montano
Stories (2/0)
Infertility = Empty Shell
The day I found out my fallopian tubes were blocked by the HSG test was one of the most painful days of my life. To hear the news that I can not conceive a child on my own, my tubes are incompetent. The only suggested procedure was IVF and it was out of my league.... well out of my financial budget. The procedure starts at $10,000 a round and that doesn't even include the cost of medications. When I heard the news that they were blocked the room felt like it was spinning . I cried for hours and hours and felt no relief . To be a woman and know that I may never carry a child in my lonely whom is very devastating. I feel so broken and hurt, some days I ask God "Why me?" I feel as if I have let my husband down. I feel like a failure, this defiantly has affected my marriage. We do not talk anymore about children. I know there are options for adoption ; but that may even be out of question due to some personal reasons. I just hope and pray that one day I can have a child. He or she is already named and loved.
By Rayna Montano3 years ago in Families