Queen with a Crooked Crown
Bio
Memories that both haunted and hunted catapulted me to this very moment and to reclaim my life.
My mind no longer my compass, a devils whispered directions no longer requested. I deny them with my hearts truth.
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Stories (9/0)
I found her
I exhale, I breathe, and I live. I used to end that with, I endure, I am not enduring today, today I am living and I plan to live my days as me. I am on a little getaway in a glass container in the woods and for a woman with PTSD that’s umm more than brave that could almost be considered insanity. I push myself now, no, I push through, over and under the fears that present themselves to me. I did a little happy dance when I got here because I am so proud of myself, everything has been done for me for so many years and even checking into hotels sometimes made me anxious but I did it.
By Queen with a Crooked Crown 2 years ago in Motivation
The Mountain My Life
Determined to take care of my mind body and spirit I promised my sister-in-law Lisa, I would exercise or at least move every day when I told her of my separation after 15 years. My brother graciously offered his home in Vermont a place I have known my entire life, so I packed up and drove without hesitation. I could easily say yes, I went for a walk or I did yoga, but I no longer lie to myself and there is no need to lie to others anymore. I am no longer in hiding, I am all truth, not for everyone but I am for myself and that is what matters as long as I give out love to the world, I am not hurting another while being true to me.
By Queen with a Crooked Crown 2 years ago in Motivation
Undercover Racist
That’s what I call them, undercover racist. I was raised by a racist family. I was raised in a town where I never saw a black person until my mom sneakily showed me the movie Roots when I was young. That movie changed years of generational racism, because when you grow up in a racist environment that is all you know, which is what my parents experienced but my mom was ending that with me. Thank God my mother showed me that movie, I was engrossed, I felt it, I was so deeply moved by it so much so that I was sick over it. I was repulsed, angry and so despondently sad that at the age of 7 I learned yet again, humanity was “pain”. That is the greatest gift a mother could give their child, expanding their hearts and souls and seeing the injustices in the world. I’m not sure why she showed me that movie. It would be many years that I would be witness to the injustices that some people faced because of the color of their skin.
By Queen with a Crooked Crown 2 years ago in Humans
Louboutins to Hiking Boots
No statement is truer, you just need to be still I had been thinking about writing my experience in the woods, because I already knew I would be slaying yet another fear with the marvels of nature. Sleeping alone in the woods exposed in a fishbowl container, ok it’s not a fishbowl but let’s be clear with the shades up you’re exposed, but in the most magnificent way. The squirrels and I were divided only by the glass, the snow falling looked as if it was blanketing me, it was almost like a 3D feeling within two windowed walls. I cried on the way here, I cried when I parked and I cried when I entered the door, the emotion I felt, was joined with my chipmunk cheek smile that I am here. Not just here in this location, but I am here, I am alive, and I am doing yet another thing I never imagined, I was a city girl, and the woods were not for me, yet I climbed a mountain and now I’m sleeping in a container “Naked and Afraid”, not naked, not afraid but it became a family joke.
By Queen with a Crooked Crown 2 years ago in Motivation
