Patrick Meowler
Bio
A resilient writer who is recovering from addiction and stumbling his way through depression and anxiety. His personal journey has shaped his writing, allowing him to intimately explore the complexities of the human condition
Stories (9/0)
Lifting Heavy Things To Lighten My Mind
Lifting weights does much more for your overall health than just making your muscles grow. I have been working out consistently for the last four months. The most surprising benefit I gained from intense weight training six to seven times a week is improving my mental health.
By Patrick Meowler2 months ago in Longevity
Why Does Depression Come In Waves?
Depression can feel like a roller coaster ride. It can be unpredictable. It hits you like a sack of bricks, leaving you hopeless and alone, forgetting what happiness ever felt like. Then just as quickly as it arrived, depression leaves for no apparent reason.
By Patrick Meowler2 months ago in Longevity
The Day I Lost My Mother
I remember every detail of this day as if it happened yesterday. The memory of the day my world fell apart will forever be etched into my mind. Thoughts about what could have been circling my mind as I finally deal with the trauma I drowned with alcohol and drugs for years.
By Patrick Meowler2 months ago in Confessions
Addiction
I guess I always did have a problem with alcohol. The first time I ever drank at a young age led to a blackout. So did most of the other times when I come to think about it. I suspect genetics, bad choices, and a little childhood trauma mixed with an addictive personality are to blame here, but who really knows? I guess it doesn’t really matter, I just have to deal with it now.
By Patrick Meowler2 months ago in Confessions
Why Am I Terrified Of Everything When I Quit Drinking?
Fear and anxiety are the top two reasons I found quitting alcohol difficult. It is an experience I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. These feelings can get so intense that it feels like the world is a hellscape, everything is a threat, and everyone hates you.
By Patrick Meowler2 months ago in Psyche
Why You Should Do The Push Pull Legs Workout
I’ve lost approximately twenty pounds of fat, got stronger, and built muscle in two months of doing this workout, so I thought I would share some details so you can incorporate this routine into your exercise regimen.
By Patrick Meowler2 months ago in Longevity
Why We Have Crazy Dreams In Early Sobriety?
Becoming an expert in something takes a lot of repetition. As a chronic relapser, I have dealt with the pains of early sobriety many times (this is the last time); one thing that stands out is the crazy dreaming we do in those first few weeks of sobriety. Relapse nightmares, dreams about the past, and crazy dreams that make absolutely no sense, but feel extremely real, are something most people in early sobriety experience.
By Patrick Meowler2 months ago in Psyche
Hello Darkness My Old Friend…
You know the feeling. You wake up and it’s a struggle to get out of bed. You can barely manage to brush your teeth and get a shower let alone deal with actual life. Everything is a chore. None of your hobbies give you any joy. Difficult things become impossible and easy things become difficult. It’s like living underwater with a lead vest.
By Patrick Meowler2 months ago in Confessions
