An Author, A Podcaster and Life Coach who love to encourage people through creative writing and speaking. If I can just reach one person I know I'm on the right path, I'm purposed-filled and I have so much to offer.
"A Fall For Attention"
This will be the first time I’ve shared this secret and I know my mom will be shocked if she ever finds out. Even as an adult I do not think I want to admit my truth, although it’s funny now that I think about it, back then it would’ve gotten me in a lot of trouble had my mom known what really happened. Ok here it goes, back in the early nineties I was around ten years old, me, my mom and sister temporarily lived with my grandmother and other family members. It was a total of eleven people in one house and I was always finding ways to get attention from my mom and my family members in the house. I was a very active kid and I always wanted to be seen and heard, I would do something outrageous just to get some kind of reaction from someone in the house we lived in. For example, my uncle had a Sega Genesis, and when he went to work, I would sneak in his bedroom and play his video games. One day I was playing the video game and I glanced to my left and on my uncle's dresser, I noticed he had some clippers laying there. I turned the game off and became “Curious Cathy” and started to examine the clippers.
"Help, I Fell And I Can't Get Up!"
This will be this first time I’ve shared this secret and I know my mom will be shocked if she ever finds out. Even as an adult I do not think I want to admit my truth, although it’s funny now that I think about it, back then it would have gotten me in a lot of trouble had my mom known what really happened. Ok here it goes, back in the early nineties I was around ten years old, me my mom and sister lived with my grandmother and other family members. It was a total of eleven people in one house and I was always finding ways to get attention from my mom. I was a very active kid and I always wanted to be seen and heard, I would do something outrageous just to get some kind of reaction from someone in the house we lived in. For an example, my uncle had a Sega Genesis, and when he went to work, I would sneak in his bedroom and play his video games. One day I was playing the video game, and I glanced to my left and on my uncle's dresser, I noticed he had some clippers. I turned the game off and became “Curious Cathy” and started to examine the clippers.
How To Overcome Fear....
Fear is something that we have to be willing to face when we take a risk in order to elevate to the next level in life and operate in our full potentials, defeating fear can show us what we are capable of. Here is a story I want to share, back in August in 2021 I booked my first flight, the last time I was on a plane I was a teenager which was almost three decades ago. I was diagnosed with Tunnel Vision, my whole life changed since then, I even stopped driving due to my disability and at nigh time I need a walking cane due to night blindness. Going to restaurants or visiting places that are dim lit can be uncomfortable and challenging for me to function.
How To Free Yourself From Unresolved Pain...
Our emotions can sabotage great relationships and great opportunities that is offered to us, usually when we respond in a dramatic way it is due to unprocessed pain that comes from trauma. Life has many trials and tribulations that is handed to us. There are situations and circumstances that will occur that may require us to heal. However, if we are not properly healed, we will not have the emotional intelligence to function in this world with people. Unprocessed pain will cause you to have “trigger points”, anything that is familiar to what has traumatized you will caused you to respond angrily, you will put up a defense mechanism, making it hard for you to be vulnerable and have healthy relationships. Since you’ve never healed, the pain will begin to manifest through your character and personality.
Do Not Lose Hope During The Storm...
Have you ever found yourself in a situation that felt impossible to overcome? The weight and pressure of the matter overwhelmed you, every day is full of sorrow and grief. You wake up to a new beautiful day seeking ways to free yourself from the circumstances that comes and steals your joy, peace and happiness. You have absolutely no control, all you have is hope and faith, no matter how loud you scream, or how hard you cry it will not change the situation. Faith requires you to hope in what you can’t see, you must believe that every season has an ending.
Depression Does Not Own You..
Depression can take away your ability to enjoy the beauty of life, it feels like a dark cloud follows you every where you go, you have no desire to do fun and productive things. When dealing with the weight of depression you would rather be isolated and not be around people who are in such a good mood. You will develop a bad self-image, which will cause you to have low self-esteem, looking in the mirror will be the hardest thing to do, depression will actually cause you to believe that you are better off not being here. You go to work, school, and do your daily routines with a forced smile, you’ve trained yourself to appear to be ok in front of others. But little do people know, is that you were contemplating suicide the night before.
Clock Out and Clock In To Purpose..
Anxiety takes over as I realize that my rest is coming to an end, where did the time go? I blinked my eyes and I’m back to the same routine for five days straight, fighting my alarm, debating in my mind as I lay here awoken from a peaceful sleep, I quit. My stomach ulcers start to flare up as I think about having to deal with the mental and emotional stress just to only get paid enough to pay bills, tears fill up my eyes I feel forced to have to suffer in order to put food on my table. I quit, I’m not getting out of bed, this is not life, why does my head hurt? I can’t quit, rent due, my light bill is almost due, and I need a new alternator for my car, I’m tired of getting up two hours early to catch the transportation.
Your Comfort Zone Is Your Enemy.
This place is not my “safe space” it’s lonely here, I believed I was giving myself personal time by separating myself from the world. I need time to heal, I need to focus on what has been holding me hostage from my potentials. Day by day I wrestles with procrastination and fear when I’m trying to do something productive, only when I’m indulging in the lust of my flesh it get quiet in my mind, only when I am not trying to tap into my potentials I feel at ease and comfortable. The moment I try to escape the thoughts of “I can’t” and “I’m not” and start doing productive things and when I start affirming myself in the mirror to encourage myself, it gets loud in my mind again. But I’m free right? I’m just taking personal time away so that I can get better, I don’t need people, I don’t need a support system, I’ve got this!