mymindspeaks
Bio
A little something of what has been always running on my mind.
Stories (2/0)
Not a good writer but i love to share
As much as i promise myself to update my blog and created story here few days ago, i just can't seem to find a right time. So many things needed to be done yet i have so little time. I mean i've been down with fever for almost a week and i HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO DO and i just feels like crying. Is this what they called adulthood??? Sometimes i wish i could have just freeze the moment and take as much time as i need. I've been brainstorming about what should i post on my blog for a really long time since i spend time on my blog more but trust me I've had only like 3 post because i've been stuck at so many drafts. I mean, i really love to share and have opinions about literally everything but i ended up in a draft.
By mymindspeaks4 years ago in Humans
The Start of Something New
These past few years had taught me more than something.I have been struggling with my mental health for so many years. I took more pills than i could swallows, i cut deeper everyday wishing that it will end the pain. I always have struggles, especially a battle with myself. There are days i felt 101% and there are days that i felt 20%. Most of the days i felt nothing. It was really hard for me to keep going. There are so many things that keep on happening in my life. I've been surrounded by snakes, not the animal but the human-kind-of-snakes, and I almost lost my dad. I did lose my family for quite sometime and trust me, it was the lowest point of my life. I did everything i could to save them. It is true what they said, the harder you hold the rope, the deeper the wound. I decided to take one step back and let the universe do its job. Everyday i'll remind myself that it is okay to be not okay. One day i woke up feeling great and other day, i don't even want to move out of my bed. Worst part is, I have been betrayed by someone who i never thought would betrayed me and i have been hurt by someone who i never thought would hurt me. Never thought I am a strong person until being strong is the only choice i had. The moment i knew he was with another person, i know it will be the end for us and within a week, i lost him and my dearest aunt. She passed away only few days after we fought. I started to lose myself, i mean more to distance myself. At the moment i felt numb. Both of them meant so much to me and losing them, it makes me almost giving up but little did i know Allah have a better plan for me.
By mymindspeaks4 years ago in Motivation