To me , depression is this stupid made up word that people came up with and just decided that it should mean sadness. I am pretty convinced that I have been depressed my whole life up until now. I did the whole suicide thing , tried to kill myself 3 times. Its so weird when I think back on how sad I was and I still can't believe I tried to commit suicide. It makes me sad to think that I tried to kill myself. I recently became very spiritual , I tried to go to church and do the whole bible study thing. But, it just didn't work for me. I was at this time in my life where I was working two jobs and I was miserable. I will never in my life ever work two jobs ever again.