Muchtar Suryawan

Joined July 2021

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Missing
My heart is missing There’s an emptiness where it used to be Yet there’s a tightness in my hollow body That is paralyzing
By Muchtar Suryawan5 months ago in Poets
What is this feeling?
What is the name of that feeling That encompasses your entire being When you hate yourself And when you know others hate you
By Muchtar Suryawan5 months ago in Poets
true colors
once i start to show my true colors even the people who say they love me no matter what start to hate me and question my place in the world
By Muchtar Suryawan5 months ago in Poets
The Ferryman
The way that I love you is sick That is what they say They see our love as sin But what isn't to them They don't know
By Muchtar Suryawan5 months ago in Poets
Fated
it was Fate that we met that day - when I fell into your arms - slid on thin air - felt your grip on me and met your eyes -
By Muchtar Suryawan5 months ago in Poets
Top Story - June 2023
Cat Burglar Top Story - June 2023
"Don’t worry. There’s no way this can go wrong this time.” She looks up at me, an expectant look in her green gaze. I chuckle and bring my hand to rest on her head. “But yes, we can go over it again. While I'm distracting him, you enter. You grab the goods and then we meet by the window.”
By Muchtar Suryawan6 months ago in Fiction
The best distraction
Dear, I am overwhelmed again. Save me from myself. Trick me if you must. Remove me from my stress and help me forget.
By Muchtar Suryawan6 months ago in Poets
Escapism
Dance with me across the stars and the moon - intertwined limbs and shared breath Swing me around the night sky, hold me
By Muchtar Suryawan6 months ago in Poets
I'm Fine
"Hey, are you okay?" Well, not really. You see, I'm upset but I'm probably just overreacting again. I always take things too personally, and how I feel doesn't really matter because it’s my fault anyway. I'm always saying the wrong words or doing the wrong things and I don't know how to do better. I don't know why you love me or even put up with me when I'm always messing up. And I don't know how to say all that out loud without falling apart, so…
By Muchtar Suryawan7 months ago in Fiction
The Day After
"Hey, babe! I'm back." I dropped my keys into the wooden bowl by the door and threw my purse onto the couch to put up after I had a moment to rest.
By Muchtar Suryawan7 months ago in Fiction
creeping
careful child creeping carefully crawling corridors collide confidential conversations carry carelessly catch coping counterfeit compliments
By Muchtar Suryawan8 months ago in Poets
treasures told
tripping tongues telling tall tales treasures told tremendous traded tinkling trinkets turned to trauma-filled tragedies
By Muchtar Suryawan9 months ago in Poets