Mayela Sedano
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My Amazing Man
Yesterday April 21, 2021 was one of the hardest days that I think I have ever had to live and alone, I got 3 different peoples advice and they all said the same go see him, and I couldn't I sat in my car in front of the mortuary fighting myself to go inside, but I couldn't. I did not want to have his last memory to be laying in a casket. The last memory I have from him, is him walking out of my mother's front door gave me our last kiss, and drove off. I never in a million years, did I imagine that I would receive a call telling me that he had taken his life. He changed my life, he made me see and know exactly what I wanted in life, what type of person that it was that I wanted to be with. The person who I learned that I wanted to be with was, loving, caring, understandable, smart, funny, loved to sing, peaceful content, always has a smile, number one priority his daughter, family oriented would do anything for his siblings, his parents where one of his priced possessions. He was exceptional, he showed me how to be patient. He showed me how to learn to love myself again before I could love someone else. And I did I learned exactly that, another thing about this amazing man was the way he would hold me, kiss me, wake me up every morning threw a simple text message. The day he sent me a text message letting me know exactly how he felt he said that our song was "all of me" by John Legend. I didn't want to fall in love with him but I did, and I let him know how I felt and that day was one of the few times that he pushed me away from him, we would always go out eat dinner, have drinks and then we would end our night in front of his house and in his room, in the room where we lived so many amazing moments. He would make everything better after that, it's funny that I never got to met his brothers that where married, I only got to met the younger ones. The day that I ended up meeting them was not the way that I imagined to every get to know them, at this point I never thought I would even know who they where. And seen who I was, I don't think that they ever expected me there or may forgot about me, but then his mother remembered who I was, she said "yes I know who you are now, you took my son out one time, you came and ironed his shirt while he got ready." and I got a smile on my face because I know that I tried to make him happy the little bit of time that we where together. And that night was one of our best nights out, we danced all night we went to see Banda La Arrolladora, yes we are Mexican and we loved the same music. That night my brother got to meet him, I went back home with him and let me tell you, he did not sleep that night, he went straight to work. a few months went By and again we had a great night, I had gone out with my friend, and that was one of the things that I always loved about him, he always had me stop by his house to go see him, right before I went home after going out. And I would do the same with him, he rarely went out that I know of, but our relationship had a lot of trust we never broke that, and we could easily talk to each other about anything. I loved to just lay in bed and talk we would talk with the lights off and just hold each other until it was time for me to go home. Every day I would hurry at work to finish so that I could see him for at least one hour before I had to go home and attend to my son. He was 9 years older than me but to us it didn't matter, we didn't see that as anything we both loved to be around each other. And for his too, he would ask me to go visit him before he left to Mexico to visit his family. He would always say what I wanted to hear, and every time he would say "I'm going to buy you a house soon, like the one we seen and we liked." yes we went to see houses, but we both didn't want just a house we wanted a ranch to have horses, he loved that life style to be free, in mind and in heart. That was the dream we shared, but I seen it not happening in the near future at one point. He loved his daughter she was his everything, and I always wanted to meet her but he never let me, or wanted it to happen. That is when I got hurt once again, I started seeing that house that dream further away. It seamed as if he was afraid of his daughter. It felt as if she thought that his love was going to be taken from her. But it wasn't, his love for her is like every parent unconditional. I don't understand if he was afraid of how she would react know that her dad was remaking his life with another woman that was not her mother? I don't know, but he lost me for that one reason. He hurt me the day that I had bought the tickets to go see Banda MS, and his response was sorry take your brother, I can't go my daughter and ex wife will be there and I don't want them to see me with you. That was the day that I decided to change with him, I thought he should not act that way with me. And my words to him where "you always say that I don't know what I want I do, your 39 years old and you still don't know what you want". After that day I decided to move on with my life. I still wanted to stay and see if things would change, and they did the only thing was that I lost interest. And about this time of year back 5 years ago he came to my house for the second time, we had dinner that I had cooked for him, watched a movie, we went to my room and made love, we never thought it would be the last time that I would be with him. After he decided to call it a day and went home, that day he wore a red t shirt, dark blue jeans, with all black vans, I walked him to the door, kissed him and said good bye. I ran upstairs to my brother's room to see him drive away. After 4 years of not talking, yes we talked one last time, when I told him that I was pregnant of my daughter, he congratulated me, and assured me that he was doing good. Obviously he wasn't, the only thing that I was able to do it write this short story of this amazing adventure I had knowing the man who thought me how to love again. This is a love story with a sad good bye, our story was short I always wished that it was my forever, but for whatever reason it wasn't meant to be. But one thing I can say I will forever miss you, and love you. You hold a special place in my heart. This short story or chapter is dedicated to my amazing man.
By Mayela Sedano 3 years ago in Humans